Ayat-ayat Cinta II

Sampai sekarang aku masih tertanya2 how my love story will be, either i'm gonna be like Aishah who sacrifice everything for the sack of the new born, or being like Maria who fall in love deeply to Fahri and couldn`t said a word about her feeling and in the end Fahri married to Aishah and she still love that guy to death. Or maybe the gurl who libelled Fahri for the sack the she was already fall in love with Fahri kindness. Hmmm........ gorsshhh I'm totally not those type of gurl.

I don't know, today.... meaning of LOVE is so cheap, so easy and at the end there`s no value. I dreamt someone that is my faith and my courage, can i get these kind of guy.???? Who can trust who I am, and i trust him too. We have the same kind of instinct that only we can feel it. We can share everything bout' life, bout' love, bout' politics, bout' our interest, bout' our family and friends and just bout anything......and apart of that we know we have each other. Thats what i want in love. It seem like just LOVE in the storybook or fairytale.

The world is getting too pessimistic and egoistic, everyone was too keen to protect their own soul and they hasn't know that they just hurt other people feeling. I felt it with Ajib before, and at the time of moment I know that he was not meant for me, he was too egoistic as a guy that you can respect as a MAN, as a FRIEND, and of coz as a HUSBAND.... if we did get married, I don't know whether it will last long. He has the valued that he can handle me, but deep down inside me I'm acting just like a pretender, so he will be happy, BUT i'm not. Some gurl can handle him, and that gurl is absolutely not me.

I trying soo hard to sacrifice in love but at the end i'm the only person whom is heart-breaker and fall apart. Maybe Allah guide me......insyaallah.

"namun harusku tinggalkan cinta.......ketika ku bersujud."

Ayat-ayat Cinta

Desir pasir dipadang tandus, segersang pemikiran hati, sekisah ku diantara cinta yg rumit

Bila keyakinan ku datang, kasih bukan sekadar cinta, pengorbanan cinta yg agung

kupertaruhkan..............

Maafkan bilaku tak sempurna, cinta ini tak mungkin kujaga, ayat-ayat cinta bercerita cintakupadamu............

Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh seakanku bisa hidup lebih lama, namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta ketika ku bersujud...........

....ketikaku bersujud.

Well.....hmmm, semalam i had a very rushy life, celebrate Meni birthday at 12pm.....siap masak bihun lagi kt umah dia.....2.30pm rush to hentian serdang ngan ida tunggu bob kat cna. Then we all ge Johor bahru sebab ida and bob transfer ker cna. kul 7.30 sampai kat tol skudai, ktrg bwk memang slow habes sebab hujan jer sepanjang jalan. Keta bob lak aircon rosak soo.......takkan nak tinggal dia.....sungguh tak setia kawan kekeke...... Sampai jer JB ktrg tunggu staff Perhilitan En. Amy, staff Daha sebab nak settlekan pasal penginapan. Ktrg tunggu dia depan Hotel New York. Dia datang ngan anak and wife dia tapi dorg tak keluar sebab anak dia tido. Ktrg follow dia sampai wisma persekutuan then dia bwk ktrg ker Hotel Rasa Sayang then tunjuk kat mana ofis perhilitan yg bob bakal kerja. On behalf of that ida suruh En.Amy lukis peta nak ker Larkin sebab nak beli tiket bas kat ctu....... Well, dapat gak beli tiket transnational kul 11mlm,ida bayarkan.....utk diri SAYA pulang ker KL, sangat-sangat ttired.....paham. Tapi Ok laaaa.....happy sepanjang perjalanan, almaklumlah pg ngan ida, dia 'bahan' wa, wa 'bahan' dia balik...pstu kihkihkih ketawa. Cuma part tak best bler BF called then marah-marah. Mula2 ingat nak duduk kat JB barang sehari dua, tapi sebab BF dah maki-maki hamun suruh balik, nak tak nak wa kena balik walaupun dalam hati memang berangin jer sebab dah bawak baju tido segala bagai, siap bawak pario lagi, ingatkan nak main air kt tepi pantai.....huh sumua tu angan2 belaka.....tension jer. Ida ketawa jer sambil nasihat wa suruh balik, malas nak panjang2 kan cerita, lain kali bleh datang lagi...kata ida. Al maklum la wa ni kaki berjalan. Wa tak kira musti nak kena pg Pulau Tioman ngan Pulau Sibu. Nak pg jugak!!!!!

Sampai kat hentian serdang kul 3.15am, wa suruh BF amek, lantak la sapa yg suruh wa balik cni. Heh rasakan tunggu wa naik bas sepanjang malam. Nasib baik dia tak marah2 time pick up wa. Memang wa pun ready nak meletoop jer. Ktrg ge minum kat Ane' Maulana baru tu. Marah jugak tapi malas nak panjangkan cerita. Bila dengar lagu ayat-ayat cinta ni....haarrgggg sedihnyer, naper complicated sgt CINTA. Naper org susah nak percaya org macam aku or org macam ida ni, actually setia. I'm gettin' so fedup more and more. Tapi biar la....kesetiaan kitrg nih berbaloi. People can said what ever they want, but when they are in our shoes, i'm sure they will exactly reacted like us. Pen-off for today.

Selamat Hari Raya

Wahhh....tensionnyer aku tak leh balik kampung minggu ni nengok anak sedara aku cukur rambut..... rasa tak puas natap muka dia yg bulat tu macam anak jepun dah la kuat memberontak kecik2 dah pandai, sebijik perangai macam mak dia.....kakak aku tu la. Aku siap panggil anak buah aku ni 'pengganas' ..... pandai betul dia memberontak, kalo dah start dukung dia jgn harap nak duduk mula la dia bunyi siap tolak2 ngan kaki lagi. nak tido pun susah sebijik mcm mak dia jenis tak tido malam. Then yg comel nyer umur baru sebulan dah pandai buat mulut muncung. Mula2 tu pelik gak kat mana budak ni belajar....reruper nyer masa kakak aku ngandong dia kejer kakak aku ni main game jer.....maka bila time nak menang kakak aku selalu mungcung mulut huh huh nak menang.......hah maka sekarang ni anak dia ngekor. Hahaha sengal tul...........



Huh raya tahun ni leh kata meriah gak, ramai yang datang melawat ktrg. Cuma yg tak meriahnyer part kuih raya, leh tak time aku balik kampung seketul kuih raya pun mak aku tak buat lagi. bengang punya pasal, aku kerah tenaga adik aku buat kuih raya sehari 2 jenis.....ngan kakak aku sekali kena tolong walaupun masih lam pantang....peduli hapa aku. Maka hasilnya kuih raya tahun ni, tak habes sebab semua kuih yg aku buat tu tak sedap langsung. So semalam kak fat tanya mana kuih raya Yat. Aku jawab...hehe tak leh bawak sini sebab tak lepas SIRIM, dari kena kutuk kuih aku tak sedap baik aku wat muka tebal jer tak bawak kuih raya......hehe.