He is the KIng of Fruit

I think every person has their own elergy-to-something, i had a friends whose elergy to seafood (CT and Ida), some elergy to vegetables (Shahrini), some elergic to taugeh, my-lil-bro elergic to shrimp and to name a few. Well in my case, i am elergic to durian. When i was a little kid i do eat durian somewhat like seulas setahun, when i grown up the things get even more worst. I can't even smell the durian. The gasses itself,  it was like I want to thrownaway/"termuntah".

When i became a teenagers, i said to my mum that i hate durian. And she recall me back by saying that when she was pregnant with me, she can't even smell the durian even she LOVE durian soo much. Sooo, i had an intensity hate over durian since i was in my mum belly..... i don't know why....

So nowaday, when i was accidently walk near the durian stall or someone who eat durian, i will close my nose, B'COS i can't stand with the smell. I do afraid that i might thrownaway, and for god sac, loose your appetite. It is not something that i do it in purpose, its more like a nature of me.

I do realise that people often look at me.. like i fake it, acting, and maybe they think that i'm more like mengada-ngada or maybe Melayu Tak Sedar Diri .... or something. It hurt me and it does... it is not something that i want, it happen by the name of god..... and i still hasn't knew why....!!!

When i smell certain varieties of durian, i can thrown in just a second, but i can stand with certain variety which is not too hard smell. I also do not have a problem with durian which is harvest 2 to 3 days from the dusun and i don't have a problem with tempoyak too, the thing will get worst if the durian has been soo long harvest, about a week or something.... i just can smell it from half kilometer away.....

When i smell the durian, First it goes straight to my head and brain and then to my stomach, often i felt like dizzy, blur and then i want to trown....... sometime the thing will get worst and my body temperature will raise and i will get DEMAM. I happen to get demam three time in my life because of the smell of these durian.......

And still people said that i fake it........ I don't knew how to explain to them that since i knew world i have been surrounding with durian tree. I live in Kampung Dusun, and my dad do has the ochard. I'm not that melayu tak sedar diri.... i just couldn't stand with the smell.... i do not need a people respect for my elergic, i just want pople to tell me that they want to eat durian soo i can go away from that place.... i respect them and i don't want to thrownaway in front of their feet...if that is your wish, then i can do it..with pleasure!!!

Enought with today, my head is still dizzy.....got to have a hot tea or something. Chow..!!

Plagiarism.....Pleasurism.....May i choose..??

NOTE: These is an EDUCATIONAL industries and it is not a POLITICAL activities....

I don't know where to start, but me with some of my fellow friends has been discuss these for many years, and still we haven't got the right specific concrete answer for these QUOTE. Its really not a question its more into penalty... so i note it as a QUOTE, its really look more polite... i think...

Now let us flew to a time before a century when pablo picaso has his painting, when galileo galilea has claim his telescope, Plato with his i-didn't-understant-his-philosophy-book, Da vinci had his Monalisa still people nowaday arguing that ladies is actually himself indeed, Vasco da gamma claim his the men of the cape of hope, and Mr. columbus claim his the founder of america when the land has been used for indegenius for making dried salty fish....hearing and salmon...yummy!!

Even they have a mentor, they...themself has been noted with their own hardwork... Has been known, has been quote by THEIR name, not by the mentor or people whom supply the money....

If that happen, well you must has guess how many quotation of King Henry IV or maybe socrates...... to be worst...... "we put some salt and dried it in the land so it is much easy for us to transport it and sold it. (Indigenous people, 1208)"

Such a pleasure isn't  it..........

SAYA TIDAK TAKUT PADA SESUATU YG DINAMAKAN KEBENARAN

Bukit Broga, Semenyih

Wow.... my life has been full with activities each week which reopen again my heart and my life for a new beginning. It soo amaze to have a friends along and reupdate about their life and the latest gosip around, which make me realize that my life is not too bad or whatsoever.........cool yeah...

So these is a few friends that make XPDC to Bukit Broga came to real life..... Having so much fun there..!! Eventhou these XPDC is somewhat BELASAH punya type....dgn tak tahu sgt jalan....petunjuk ktrg satu jer iaitu ladang kelapa sawit sebelah dia ladang arnab..... memang mengagau mencari dengn 2 3 keta follow ktrg pastu ktrg sesat, ktrg pulak follow dorank, pastu dorank pulak sesat....last2 tanya org.. rasa cam progrm explorace lak...(pepagi buta pukul 4.30am mcm dah takder kejer sgt!!)

Pas parking keta kt ladang kelapa sawit terus shoot naik bleh tahan la trek dia...just ramai gler org yg naik rasa dalam 300 org kot and bukit tu ada beberapa puncak. Nora, exit, goku ngn nadia lepak kt puncak num.1 tapi aku ngn rasul shoot sampai puncak yg hujung skali.... puncak num.4 and paling tinggi. Memang puas gler sbb berjya mengeluarkan peluh dgn bnyknya.....hehe view memang cantik sbb leh nampak seluruh pekan semenyih... biler siang pemandangan dah macam padang rumput new zealand yg mcm iklan lam TV tuh.....

KAMI............

Petang tuh pas makan nasik ngn goreng ayam masak kicap. Teman Exit nak wat contact lans kt Jusco Equine, belum masuk parking lg dah nampak banner SALE, aku dah tak senang duduk, melangkah jer masuk Jusco terus nampak longgokan baju RM10, RM15, sale 50%, sale 70%..... oh dugaan apakah ini... dah la gaji masuk hujung bulan depan, dgn penuh nekad aku nak shopping jugak.... stok megi ngn makanan lain aku dah beli bnyk2.... kang takder ler kebulur sgt. Pastu otw nak balik jumpa lg sale pakaian sukan tgh2 jusco, tak cari pintu masuk terus main redah jer palang dia...... harharhar...capai sportbra...sale 50% dowh swazenbach..... mana nak dapat. OTW nak keluar jumpa lg sale 50% seluar jogging....bantai..!!! Sampai exit cakap... takper pasni kalo tak cukup makan goreng jer baju tu masak kicap... seluar gigit sikit2.... hehe..

Takper buat jer muka seposen, misti ada org kesian kt aku nnt.....

The Climb

I when shopping for my grocery yesterday and stop-by at bookstore which sold a 2ndhand book, so i grab these Life and Death on Everest. It was soo tantalizing and very encouraging.......

"When you're around that kind of confidence, you adopt it yourself, and you keep moving forward whether it be on one of the most beautiful walks on Earth or, like Hillary, to the top of the world."

It was not glory we sought, unless it be the common glory of man's triumph over Nature and over his own limitations.

Ed's the sort of person who, if he's asked to do something and he can't think of a reason not to, he'll go ahead and do it.

The thing that amazes me, in a way, is that it all keeps going. But i think i have a clear idea why. I think a lot of people rather like the fact that i haven't just climbed mountains but also builts schools, hospitals and all the rest of it. So in a way i've given back to the people all the help they gave me on the mountain.

- Sir Edmund Hillary

Ok enought for today, a reading while having my breakfast, some nescafe with sausage and crabstick mound together with mayo, mustard and chilli sauce......... cool yeah!! I reach to the office before 8am, as not-really usual, got to do some lab work...... panaskan my engine to do my work on friday morning.... what a full of spirit........while everybody was ready for a weekend.....

Duh..... what a gurl...!!! (U may read it in sceptical way...!!)

Saya Seekor Tikus.....

Semalam aku menghabiskan tugas aku menanda kertas amali budak…. Ada satu amali lagi tak siap. Mungkin sebab dah last amali budak2 punya lukisan, masyaallah…. Sakit kepala ngn mata nak menanda…. Nak bg sikit kang kesian pulak kat budak… nak bg markah bnyk…. Humangaih…. Naik migrant nengok lukisannya…. Lukis phylum: porifera (sponge)…rupa dah macam kapal selam/ kapal UFO pun yer jugak. Nak jer aku scan then tunjuk lam blog nih, nasib baik aku takder peralatan berteknology mcm scanner, lukis tikus mcm lukisan budak tadika….. tension jerr!! Lukis lizard dah macam dinosaur kaedahnya…….Lukis lamprey lak cam batang penyapu……Harrggghhh…tekanan..!!

Menanda kertas amali budak memang mencabar, rasa cam nak terputus urat kepala.

Saya seekor tikus.....!!

Belalang yg terkejut......

Tikus yg mati tertelan racun tikus....

KEBETULAN.....

Aku tak pernah mengenalinya,

Tapi kenapa hati terasa terlalu rapat dan dekat dgn nya.....

Seolah-olah i knew him for the rest of mylife....

Its weird, like a dejavu....

Everyday i pray to Allah for take him away from me,

But it seem like, he was still there...

We not even close....not even had a chat with each other,

I'm not even knew him....

I do think that he never did realize of my existance.

May Allah send my regard to his heart....

May Allah care for him and gave strength for him....

Kadang-kadang....kebetulan adalah sesuatu yg sgt INDAH

Sangat INDAH......!!!!

Biar cinta terhalang gunung dan samudera, aku tetap memegang janjiku padamu.....

JGN pisahkan AKU dan DIA.....

DARE to face TOMORROW.....

My life is totally ups and down for the past few week, gonna tune back and trace back where my spirit has gone for a holiday (har3...!!). Hey Ms. spirit, ain't mean nothing when you just walk by here and there, come back to my body, we settle everything together......... kahkahkah....

Problem is something that you have to learn to settle it, if you can't settle that problem then you may run away and save your butt, while ME, why i have to run away when i never did try as hard as i can to settle that problem, everything were just mess completely mess, i will settle it one by one. If i can't settle it then i will run away. Harharhar.................. 

Got to face it........one more biscuit won't hurt me.!!

PS:- When i had a chocolate drink, i will became happy an hyperactive, duuhhh......really fast effect on my body......................

  

SEmalam ......

Semalam i'm having a tea break with MIRA at secret recipe ALAMANDA

Panjang jugak laa dskusi ktrg, bnyk yg aku kena cut,

But the main point is .... having a steady other-half

Kadang2 aku pikir aku nak ada other-half nih,

Kadang2 pikir cam tak ready lagi, mcm menyemak jer kalo ada...har3

Abeh cam no...!!

Ramai org kata yg aku belum jumpa yg betul2 utk aku.....

Ramai gak org kata takyah cari, nnt dia datang sendiri....

Aku memang tak cari, tapi apahal tak dtg2 lg.... hhmmm..wonder..!!!

Ramai org kata muka ko nih garang tak senyum langsung,

Bnyk gak org kata camtu kt aku.... XBF's pun cakap camtu...

Abeh tu takkan aku nak menyengih jerr.... kang org pikir aku nih tak betul pulak....

Aku teringat lagi masa aku thn 90-an, ada drama Jepun pasal sornk pompuan cantik sgt dan mempunyai kerjaya yg sgt establish, tapi satu jer problem dia sbb umur dah lanjut and tak kawen lg. Pompuan nih terlalu perfect sampai lelaki tak berani nak tackle dia. Body dia cantik and tinggi cam model. Pompuan nih gak actually masih dok mengharapkan X-bf dia yg memang hensom and sgt2 matching la dorank nih. Somehow, ader sornk laki yg minat kt dia, tapi muka laki nih memang stok pecah umah laa.... kejer pun tak stabil. Serius muka laki tu memang huduh gler dah la pendek lak tu, apek jual sayur pun ada rupa tau.

At the end of the stori, laki tu cuba nak propose pompuan tu, pompuan tuh reject so laki nih pun kecewa dia blah. Somehow, pompuan tuh terpikir balik kenapa nak reject lelaki tu sbb hanya laki tu jer yg berani proposed dia walaupun dgn penuh bersusah payah, how came kalo laki tuh boleh membahagiakan dia, how came kalo lelaki tuh memang cinta sejati dia. Last2 dia pg kejar laki tuh, sampai tepi jalan and hujan pun turun, dia bg tahu yg dia terima lamaran lelaki tuh........ time tuh laki tu dah gabra sbb dia dh buang cincin propose tuh ntah ke mana, last2 pompuan tu amek skru tepi jln and laki tu sarungkan skru tu kt jari pompuan tuh.... the end

Moral of the story: kalo kita perfect confirm kawen ngn org tak perfect.... mcm yin and yang, moral yg lain tuh korank cari sendiri. So nih lagu promo utk drama tu yg still sampai skng aku minat lg lagu nih......

Raison d'etre

Minggu lepas aku sakit perut yg menyucuk seksgt sbb makan makanan pedas tanpa kontrol, so start minggu lepas aku tak der selera nak makan, berat aku turun balik maybe area 47kg. Time ge open house jer baru aku jamah nasi, sebelum2 tu bantai bubur MCD jer hari2, sbb aku takder mood nak masak. Semalam makan nasi lemak tp amek sambal sikit jer, ptg tu makan dori fish kt secret recipe, arini masak telur campur frankfurter goreng pastu letak cheese ngn sos cili sikit..... kena kawal makanan sekarang nih takut perut aku buat hal lg, then taknak gestrik aku dtg balik....siksa dowh..!!

And for sure dua tiga minggu nih, aku memang LEMAU gler2 nak wat kerjer, lantak ar kalo dornk kt cni asyik tgk aku layan FB, tulis blog or asyik dok baca blog org jerr... suka hati aku aaa!!!. Rasa dah give up sgt2 dan skang tahap berserah jer lah. Tapi lama2 aku pikir.... this is really not me; personally i'm a person who'd love to gain an input and satisfied with what i did, love to take a challenge. Somehow, my master project is full with challenge WITHOUT gaining any INPUT. I do notice that the ability and capability here is still at lowest level, upon stead stool and do nothing i tried my best to overcome it, tried to cover here and there. Find the solution and do the best i can. I tried to stand in front but the situation and surrounding kept pulling me back. RIGHT now... i don't need an idea, all i need is to SETTLE the problem. I heard a lot of idea for the past two years...from very different people and background!! I'm sick of it.... at the end there's only left me, epy and uma to settle everything. Everything on our shoulder and head. You must have guess how mess we're become. 

Bru2 nih supplier hanta chemical lg, dah 3 kali hantar masih dalam bentuk yg difference walaupun num.siri yg sama, nak jer aku mengamuk, tapi relex jer aku ckp baik2 tapi dlm hati aku hanya tuhan jerr yg paham. Dah la nak dapat each chemical tu dekat 2bln baru ada stock. Aku biar jerr chemical tu atas meja, jgn harap nak bg PO, sampai aku dpt exactly yg aku nak. Now i'm gonna teach people how mean i am. Get it or GET OUT....!!! Belum lg part testing yg dah masuk 2 bulan terbengkalai sebab conditioning room kt FRIM rosak. Very goverment.....!!! Dah la seluruh Malaysia nih, testing pulp and paper kat FRIM tu jer....... bengang sgt nih...!!

Pasni saper nak cakap ngn aku.... kira nasib ko tu baik sgt laa kalo tak kena maki.....

Yang Water Rafting ni pun satu hal, last2 minute bukan nak bg tahu tarik diri... bengang aku. Woi, kalo dinghi tu aku bleh kayuh sensorg .... tak hingin aku nak ajak ramai org. Aku pegi sensorg ..... paham!!
HEHE.... mcm org gler plak kayuh dinghi sensorg.........

I'm totally down....

To be sure thats what i've felt for the past two weeks,

I knew i've hurts a lots of people around me because i'm struggling now thats for sure, to gather all my strength.

I thought everything was just fine, but the things gettin' even more complicated now....

I slide on each day, without realise where's my spirit is.....

I tried to smile to everyone but my heart is broken apart....

I tried to think but my head is empty....

Oh god.... please stopped the test you gave it to me, i can't handle it anymore....

I'm weak, only to YOU i can rely..... 

WhEn... I cOOk...

Today we celebrate our friends birthday at bilik siswazah INTROP and i cook chicken macaroni and spagetti and brought along my kuih raya and IZA's bring hers too. Everything was totally LICIN in just about an hour. And then Zatty and Husna coming back from exam, then i realise that i forgot to left some food and moist chocolate cake for them, so during friday prayed, i went back to my house and prepared another chicken macaroni for them and i just thought that i want to clear all my food in the freezer so i prepared another dish which is a chicken porridge with a shitake mushroom. When i taste it .... yummy....add a little bit ketchup (cap kipas udang.)........wallaaa.....

When i bring here to INTROP and some off my fellow friends taste it, they kept adding for more and i was very enjoyed to see their face. A feeling off pleasure when someone appreciated what we are doing even not as professional chef but that was the best effort we can do. I felt released..... all the tense inside me when i make people around me felt pleasure and happy. And i love to cook...........

When i cooked, i dragged myself into some place, with my fresh vegetable with meat with chicken mushroom onion zucchini tomatoes some blackpepper and not to forget the parsley add some cheeze walla its not a rocket scientist...... So when the food is taste good, thats meant i have improve my focus skill and dropped few of my problem, but when the taste is bad .... hahaha ... my focus and concentration is... somewhere.... to the moon or just..somewhere.... harharhar.

Well just to noted something, when i cooked that meant, i was tension.

When i blogging, that mean i have problem with my study

When i shopping, i have problem with someone else or i have extra money

When i bowling-ing, that mean i don't knew what is my problem

When i karaoke-ing, i have a problem with myself

When i facebooking, that mean i cannot settle my problem

When i went on for a vacation, i will hv a problem with money then (i'm a shopping maniac)

When my face is like monster, i hv a problem when people kept giving me the problem

Well, i'm smilling now don't worry. Its a good start for me to settle up all my PROBS....

Till then fella's, and i'd love to wish a happy birthday to Hapis, Yuz, Salmi, Iza and Shu.....