Ayat-ayat Cinta II

Sampai sekarang aku masih tertanya2 how my love story will be, either i'm gonna be like Aishah who sacrifice everything for the sack of the new born, or being like Maria who fall in love deeply to Fahri and couldn`t said a word about her feeling and in the end Fahri married to Aishah and she still love that guy to death. Or maybe the gurl who libelled Fahri for the sack the she was already fall in love with Fahri kindness. Hmmm........ gorsshhh I'm totally not those type of gurl.

I don't know, today.... meaning of LOVE is so cheap, so easy and at the end there`s no value. I dreamt someone that is my faith and my courage, can i get these kind of guy.???? Who can trust who I am, and i trust him too. We have the same kind of instinct that only we can feel it. We can share everything bout' life, bout' love, bout' politics, bout' our interest, bout' our family and friends and just bout anything......and apart of that we know we have each other. Thats what i want in love. It seem like just LOVE in the storybook or fairytale.

The world is getting too pessimistic and egoistic, everyone was too keen to protect their own soul and they hasn't know that they just hurt other people feeling. I felt it with Ajib before, and at the time of moment I know that he was not meant for me, he was too egoistic as a guy that you can respect as a MAN, as a FRIEND, and of coz as a HUSBAND.... if we did get married, I don't know whether it will last long. He has the valued that he can handle me, but deep down inside me I'm acting just like a pretender, so he will be happy, BUT i'm not. Some gurl can handle him, and that gurl is absolutely not me.

I trying soo hard to sacrifice in love but at the end i'm the only person whom is heart-breaker and fall apart. Maybe Allah guide me......insyaallah.

"namun harusku tinggalkan cinta.......ketika ku bersujud."