Oh My God....HE's LUNATIC

What the hell happen to me is totally out of explanation. My X-BF is a psycopath, he`s a lunatic, insane or mental disorder......oh my god, i just wanna to giggle, no no laught out loud that's the best words. That's why i always wonder what he always done was out off what normal people will do. Gorshhhh.......hahahaha. I alway laugh when we discus bout` Yani problem with the guy from Sabah that he wants to married with 4 gurl and the ironi is he's not even married once yet. We always make a joke with Yani case. Now my turns.......hahahaha.....new joke and the best of all, gotta tell Ijan to ZIPPed it up for awhile. Coz mine's was the best ever......I can bet ya`. Should let my break-up news be as a secret or calm for awhile, I know all my friends will thrown a BIG PARTY for me. Yup.........I'm dream on TIOMAN and I've already got a sponsor........ harharhar.

Syukur Alhamdulillah. Allah get me free from these mental disorder. He should end up stayed at Tampoi the nearest place, coz Tanjung Rambutan is too far from here. Hahahaha........ I know from the start that i didn't love him, but he was soo nice too me till i can't said NO, he's not even my type or the man that i dreamt as my husband, or the man that has educational level higher than me, or thinking like a mature human being.......... I've being with him because he treated me nicely. That's it.......when we break-up, i felt like huussshhh part off a burden was taken out from me, i felt totally free and happy. I was free to go wherever i was, free to decide what the best for me and free to just have fun in life. So........i went to Endau-Rompin State PARK last week and the best experience of all time. Whatever....life must go on, i will take this as a very valuable experience and challenge. Felt soo sorry with his wife, forgot her name someone bin kamluddin.... if not mistaken. Do take care wifee. The best part is I`m free ............ yeee hhhaaaaa.

GURL'S HAS FUN!!! That's what life owe us.........

Bunga ANGKASA.......

Indah sinar sang suria, merdu irama sang bayu, tiada seindah wajahmu, tiada semerdu suaramu, lembut bayu membelai, merdu burung berlagu, tiada selembut belaianmu, tiada semerdu kau berlagu

Keindahan wajahmu, jadi sumber ilhamku, suaramu yang merdu, menghiburkan hatiku, Bertambah cahaya hidupku, kau janjikan sumpah setia, walaupun ribut melanda, kan bersama, selagi masih ada sinaran mentari, selagi ada getar dijiwa ku, kan ku korban, jiwa raga demi cinta untuk mu bunga angkasa..........

Well, i'm trying to act like a tough gurl for a zillion time, even i am not that type. I'm too tired of affraid for something that will hunt me. Whatever!!! Be tough gurl, got a lot things to do in the future. Finish my study and get FAR away from here. Thats what my planned for the moment. It's took about 6month for me to finish my master degree. Not gonna give up for something that i've already started.

Bout' LOVE!! For me love is something that both side help each other to fight for their own soul. If only, one side who fight for good, and the other side is surrender......well, what we got then!! Same like if we felt nothing to that person, better speak up, that's the right way. Rather then be a liar and a cheater. No need fulled pages of paper for explanation, just one words mean everything. I'm not gonna cry up and lay down for something that wasn't meant for me. I'm just want to laught up....that's it. Wasting my time....!!!!

I'm not gonna look back, that's my dignity, and absolutely, I'm not gonna pick for something that i've thrown away.

Aku bukan WONDER WOMEN mu

Aku bukan WONDER WOMENmu yang bisa terus menahan rasa sakit kerna mencintaimu

Hatiku ini bukanlah hati yang tercipta dari besi dan baja hatiku ini bisa remuk dan hancur

Kamu paksa aku menerima cintamu lagi dengan segala tingkah lakumu yg membuatku binggung

Kamu tahan aku dengan mobil kamu lagi kau pikir aku akan mencair dengan rayuanmu

Hahahaha I'm not a wonder women OK. Kekeke....... I'm gettin utterly BORINK nak terus kan kerja kat cni. You know doing a research is totally everything on your shoulder, i felt like a mature human being eventhou i still think like a teenagers. Its hard, so many weird people here that i to handle included ME, haha maybe. Many back stabber, actresses, Bossess, and of course no one want to be a coolly. Yup, when people got master and PHD their attitude will be at the level of their education. WHY?? The way we working and the way people around us push to us to work make it the way its look like something EGOISTIC and BIZARD. Well it isn't, the tension level put us at these stage. God, help me finish what i've already started, give me courage ...... please.

Hows my weekend......cool, yeah. I'm get up at 11am saturday morning, drive to my lab, settling my progress report. Settle everything just about an hour, then at 1pm drive to my sister house at Damansara damai, arrive at about nearly 2pm. Then playing with my lovely niece yup I'm an auntie now...........which will reach age 2month soon. She's so lovely and adorable, cutie mutie little baby.....nama dia Dayangku Nor Salina. So sweet, auntie love u k. Play lalalala with my niece whom of course know nothing for what i'm doing; when she's sleeping. I push my sister help me with the puding roti. Those pudding is absolutely BELASAH punya type, but well done to us coz it taste soo good yeah. hehe......... My sister will having small open house on sunday, she planned doing a dim sum, wow cool. We rush to the stall downside of apartment, when we reach home, those little terrorist already wake up. So we cancel the dim sum and i'm still hoping to learn make a dimsum, maybe BF will love it. Few week ago, he ask me to make a wanton but i don't have time to buy the wonton skin. Maybe this week will, coz we planned to spend this week together. Got to buy petai and udang.......he love sambal udang and petai.

On sunday, I wake up early at 9am hahahaha...... bukak TV tgk AFC chanel. hehe hobi me and my sister pastu sama2 terliur tgk dorg masak. My abg ipar wake up then keluarkan ikan and ayam and udang.......... I help him with the cooking be'coz my sister dah mogok taknak masak, almaklum lah mula2 hubby dia cakap ajak 3 4 org jer. lepas tu semua member2 yg call dia semua dia ajak.......dah jadi lebih kurang 10-12 org. hehe lantak korg lah kalo nak gaduh. Then Yani msg kul 1pm ready, dia datang pick up nak ge kenduri suraya. After kenduri we go shopping area THE CURVE, yeah ingat nak beli handbag tapi takder yg berkenan la pulak, last2 aku beli earring seehh.....3 sepuluh hinggit beb...... borong sakan la....hehe. GTG ijan waiting.

Ayat-ayat Cinta II

Sampai sekarang aku masih tertanya2 how my love story will be, either i'm gonna be like Aishah who sacrifice everything for the sack of the new born, or being like Maria who fall in love deeply to Fahri and couldn`t said a word about her feeling and in the end Fahri married to Aishah and she still love that guy to death. Or maybe the gurl who libelled Fahri for the sack the she was already fall in love with Fahri kindness. Hmmm........ gorsshhh I'm totally not those type of gurl.

I don't know, today.... meaning of LOVE is so cheap, so easy and at the end there`s no value. I dreamt someone that is my faith and my courage, can i get these kind of guy.???? Who can trust who I am, and i trust him too. We have the same kind of instinct that only we can feel it. We can share everything bout' life, bout' love, bout' politics, bout' our interest, bout' our family and friends and just bout anything......and apart of that we know we have each other. Thats what i want in love. It seem like just LOVE in the storybook or fairytale.

The world is getting too pessimistic and egoistic, everyone was too keen to protect their own soul and they hasn't know that they just hurt other people feeling. I felt it with Ajib before, and at the time of moment I know that he was not meant for me, he was too egoistic as a guy that you can respect as a MAN, as a FRIEND, and of coz as a HUSBAND.... if we did get married, I don't know whether it will last long. He has the valued that he can handle me, but deep down inside me I'm acting just like a pretender, so he will be happy, BUT i'm not. Some gurl can handle him, and that gurl is absolutely not me.

I trying soo hard to sacrifice in love but at the end i'm the only person whom is heart-breaker and fall apart. Maybe Allah guide me......insyaallah.

"namun harusku tinggalkan cinta.......ketika ku bersujud."

Ayat-ayat Cinta

Desir pasir dipadang tandus, segersang pemikiran hati, sekisah ku diantara cinta yg rumit

Bila keyakinan ku datang, kasih bukan sekadar cinta, pengorbanan cinta yg agung

kupertaruhkan..............

Maafkan bilaku tak sempurna, cinta ini tak mungkin kujaga, ayat-ayat cinta bercerita cintakupadamu............

Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh seakanku bisa hidup lebih lama, namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta ketika ku bersujud...........

....ketikaku bersujud.

Well.....hmmm, semalam i had a very rushy life, celebrate Meni birthday at 12pm.....siap masak bihun lagi kt umah dia.....2.30pm rush to hentian serdang ngan ida tunggu bob kat cna. Then we all ge Johor bahru sebab ida and bob transfer ker cna. kul 7.30 sampai kat tol skudai, ktrg bwk memang slow habes sebab hujan jer sepanjang jalan. Keta bob lak aircon rosak soo.......takkan nak tinggal dia.....sungguh tak setia kawan kekeke...... Sampai jer JB ktrg tunggu staff Perhilitan En. Amy, staff Daha sebab nak settlekan pasal penginapan. Ktrg tunggu dia depan Hotel New York. Dia datang ngan anak and wife dia tapi dorg tak keluar sebab anak dia tido. Ktrg follow dia sampai wisma persekutuan then dia bwk ktrg ker Hotel Rasa Sayang then tunjuk kat mana ofis perhilitan yg bob bakal kerja. On behalf of that ida suruh En.Amy lukis peta nak ker Larkin sebab nak beli tiket bas kat ctu....... Well, dapat gak beli tiket transnational kul 11mlm,ida bayarkan.....utk diri SAYA pulang ker KL, sangat-sangat ttired.....paham. Tapi Ok laaaa.....happy sepanjang perjalanan, almaklumlah pg ngan ida, dia 'bahan' wa, wa 'bahan' dia balik...pstu kihkihkih ketawa. Cuma part tak best bler BF called then marah-marah. Mula2 ingat nak duduk kat JB barang sehari dua, tapi sebab BF dah maki-maki hamun suruh balik, nak tak nak wa kena balik walaupun dalam hati memang berangin jer sebab dah bawak baju tido segala bagai, siap bawak pario lagi, ingatkan nak main air kt tepi pantai.....huh sumua tu angan2 belaka.....tension jer. Ida ketawa jer sambil nasihat wa suruh balik, malas nak panjang2 kan cerita, lain kali bleh datang lagi...kata ida. Al maklum la wa ni kaki berjalan. Wa tak kira musti nak kena pg Pulau Tioman ngan Pulau Sibu. Nak pg jugak!!!!!

Sampai kat hentian serdang kul 3.15am, wa suruh BF amek, lantak la sapa yg suruh wa balik cni. Heh rasakan tunggu wa naik bas sepanjang malam. Nasib baik dia tak marah2 time pick up wa. Memang wa pun ready nak meletoop jer. Ktrg ge minum kat Ane' Maulana baru tu. Marah jugak tapi malas nak panjangkan cerita. Bila dengar lagu ayat-ayat cinta ni....haarrgggg sedihnyer, naper complicated sgt CINTA. Naper org susah nak percaya org macam aku or org macam ida ni, actually setia. I'm gettin' so fedup more and more. Tapi biar la....kesetiaan kitrg nih berbaloi. People can said what ever they want, but when they are in our shoes, i'm sure they will exactly reacted like us. Pen-off for today.

Selamat Hari Raya

Wahhh....tensionnyer aku tak leh balik kampung minggu ni nengok anak sedara aku cukur rambut..... rasa tak puas natap muka dia yg bulat tu macam anak jepun dah la kuat memberontak kecik2 dah pandai, sebijik perangai macam mak dia.....kakak aku tu la. Aku siap panggil anak buah aku ni 'pengganas' ..... pandai betul dia memberontak, kalo dah start dukung dia jgn harap nak duduk mula la dia bunyi siap tolak2 ngan kaki lagi. nak tido pun susah sebijik mcm mak dia jenis tak tido malam. Then yg comel nyer umur baru sebulan dah pandai buat mulut muncung. Mula2 tu pelik gak kat mana budak ni belajar....reruper nyer masa kakak aku ngandong dia kejer kakak aku ni main game jer.....maka bila time nak menang kakak aku selalu mungcung mulut huh huh nak menang.......hah maka sekarang ni anak dia ngekor. Hahaha sengal tul...........



Huh raya tahun ni leh kata meriah gak, ramai yang datang melawat ktrg. Cuma yg tak meriahnyer part kuih raya, leh tak time aku balik kampung seketul kuih raya pun mak aku tak buat lagi. bengang punya pasal, aku kerah tenaga adik aku buat kuih raya sehari 2 jenis.....ngan kakak aku sekali kena tolong walaupun masih lam pantang....peduli hapa aku. Maka hasilnya kuih raya tahun ni, tak habes sebab semua kuih yg aku buat tu tak sedap langsung. So semalam kak fat tanya mana kuih raya Yat. Aku jawab...hehe tak leh bawak sini sebab tak lepas SIRIM, dari kena kutuk kuih aku tak sedap baik aku wat muka tebal jer tak bawak kuih raya......hehe.