SUKA-DUKA

Kisah Aku & Dia

Hati tertawa ketika jiwa rapuh

mengatakan aku masih tabah atas dugaan

Tersenyum menilai satu had yg angkuh

pada jiwa ku yg kudus..

Mampukah aku menjadi seperti seorg puteri

yg hanya menunggu seorg jati yg utuh

memerangi kota mengalirkan noktah pada

hidup yg hakiki........

Sesungguhnya aku pasrah menunggu

jatuhnya takdir pada diriku..

Walau jiwa jitu mengatakan aku mampu

membutuhkan diri sendiri....

Mampu menilai mana enteng untuk diriku

Mampu mengatakan iya atau tidak

mengikut had pemikiran akal diriku

Mampu memilih kisah aku & kisah dia

Yg KAU lahirkan bersama takdir riwayatku

Dia yg membentuk tulang belikatku

Meluruskan jalanku yg bengkok & belok

Dekat dihati untuk dicinta olehnya

Dekat dibahu untuk dipimpinnya

Dekat dijiwa untuk dikasihnya

Dekat dimata untuk dinilai olehnya

Dinilai sebuah kisah seorang gadis

Yg bakal menjadi gadisnya....

Gadis pd tulang belikat terjadinya dia.

24/7/08

DREAMT

Gorsh..... i dreamt such a weird dream these morning and it looks sooo real till i said to my heart... damt it not againt. I'm tired of these......thats it. This time i seen that guy face clearly and has chat with him, felt releast come out from my heart, and felt that i'm being me. All i can fell that he is quiet young from me.......... and I'm not working here anymore, i work at some place but most important thing is i love that job and i love that place tooo.........

Gorrsshhhh...... these is what we call a dream is a sum up of what you felt, what u afraid, and what you really wants in life....

My DAY though!!

Alhamdullillah.... things gettin' even better now in my life, just few thing that i still need hardwork and strength to work it up....especially bout' my master degree. I've read a very astonishing couraging books this week which put a stunt on my faces.... and make realise..wow these is life, even she's a jew, we have a few things in common walla... she dislexia.... GOLDIE HAWN, an actress and loving mom to kate hudson (How to lost a guy in 10 days).

Even my relationship with my friends gettin' even more close, i think i would be like nobody without a person that i can call friends ..... we walk all the way throught happy and hard time.... we forgive and we forget!! Thanks Allah for the given of, those entourage.

Bout my ABG, i love u soo much, there's no words can describe it, it just a feeling and connection in our heart that always kept us going. But rather now and then i just put our faith and destiny on God hand. Loving someone so much won't meant a thing if we didn't try to love ourself, family, people surround us and most of all God. I try to put a barrier for that, even deep down inside me ...... you still the one!!!

FRIENDS

One of my friend gave a new comments on my friendster ......... semoga tidak melupakan kawan lama walaupun mempunyai kawan baru........... Aku hanya mampu tersenyum..... Its very unprofesional of me if i'm gettin' mad and angry......woooo hhooo.... u tahu ker what happen, u dengar sebelah side memang u will blame me. BUT if i stated her attitude toward certain thing... i think you will came to me.... and said... you really RIGHT gurl. Hmmmm just malas nak gaduh2... lantak lah berapa puluh juta org that she gathered as her crony....hello i do not care. ME is me.......... Let me calm for a while.... thats it.

Susah nak describe hubungan kawan sesama kawan ni.... its a relationship between two human being. kalau kita berkawan ngan ikan peliharaan kita or kucing ker... let say any pets la... they have no expression no emotion. with human ni totally diffrences la...... Take it secara matang la.

LANTAK LAAAA!!!!!!!

SYUKUR KU SEDAR

Hmmmm.......Ipin cerita kt aku yang dia bru jer break ngan adik Syed, kesian lak aku nengok dia. Entahlah i donno, aku just cakap bawa busykan diri ko so ko tak banyak sangat pikir, then bila ko ditempat yang benar insyaallah tuhan akan tunjuk something.

I just kept thinking when i've break-up, hahaha....pengalaman yang sgt2 diffrence ngan Ipin, maybe aku tak terlalu cinta sgt ngan Ex aku that's why biler break, aku rasa satu perasaan yang sgt release............. free. Happy!! Tu jer yang aku rasa, walaupun memula tu risau gak what my friends will think bout' me, nak nak pulak aku sekarang nih dah di chop playgurl, jap jap ngan laki ni jap jap ngan org lain, but for me hidup misti diteruskan, mana yang salah kita perbetulkan dan sesungguhnya terimalah kenyataan yang aku ni manusia bukannya malaikat. Manusia yang sgt kudus!!!! And what's not kill me will always make me stronger. Thats why aper yg org cakap tentang aku, aku just take note, kalo salah aku, then aku perbetulkan otherwise..... hmmm lalalalaaa.

Mungkin org akan cakap ko nih tak serik2. HHMMM.... susah nak describe sebab setiap org generate diffrence idea when they have a problem. For me which is past is always past, I'll take it as a lesson but it won't stop me to just be me be myself and be happy. Like what i said before, mana yang salah aku, aku akan perbetulkan otherwise hhhmmmm sendiri mau ingat laa....

Alhamdullillah...... right now, I really happy with myself and of coz I have someone on the busket..... hahaha. Not gonna reveal yet his identiti. Even I know my friend knows that i have someone but they didn't know who is him. I want to stick it that way, coz i really need time to explain to all my friends. Tapi aku tak nafikan yang aku happy yang susah nak diluahkan dalam perkataan. Mcm diawang-awangan, mabuk kepayang agaknya. hahahaha!!!!! Ari ahad aritu aku ge mandi sungai kat ulu langat, then ada jame sikit kt pekan tu, then aku nampak kereta Ex-orggiler tu. All i felt is nothing, coz i'm yeah tgh angau........ i think it is good for a new start. Aku dapat balik siapa diri aku........

Hehe....LUCKY is when you always has a bunch of friends to chear you up...... always has a guy on the altar to reach your hands, and lucky to have family to support you. Thanks GOD. I WILL ALWAYS APPRECIATE WHO I AM.