Hari Yang Totally Blurred

Pagi tadi aku berjaya mengharungi meeting dengan penuh bergaya and penuh persediaan. Walaupun Epi ngan En.Maen takder, just Me, Umapathy and Dr. Ainun. Its great start when we discussed bout our progress and most important is we discuss bout working here, the pressure, people around us, surrounding, the machine, supplier, its a very enjoyed meeting with casual discussion.

Harharharhar

Got to laught bout it, i had a deep instinct few weeks ago that said someone will get engage, then aku msg LUFTI tanya ko cuti bertunang ek. Dia msg balik cakap tak...... then aku tanya En. SYED, dia cakap tak jugak. At last, i've got the answer, my sister told me my X-BF is getting engage few weeks ago...... with my stern face i said BAGUS LAA....... Yeah its really, good for him. I don't knew why? But... it's really good for him.

Sometime being single is quite alone, but most of the time, I like being single without any comitment, you have nothing to care with you don't have to sms someone said that you going out somewhere that you gonna be late going back home, you just do whatever you want to do in yourlife. You can go karaoke, can go bowling everyday, can go shopping, can go lepak mamak with guys gurls whatever .....bla bla bla

I knew that the guys that god made for me is worth waiting for..... so i'd be OK with it. But this time i really hope that the guy has good educational level if not i hope to get a guy that has higher thinking level. Based on....... i don't know, when you a gurl, you had diploma, had bachelor degree, going to get master degree..... your level of thinking is quite difference. Some people see a problem and settle it in just one way of direction, but when you learn more your level of thinking is..... you see a problem in three way dimension, a 3D......haha macam Respond Surface Method (Statistic) lak. 1st ...you trying hard to settle the problem.... 2nd... you trying so hard to find a people that can settle that problem... 3rd.... argghhh lantak lah with that problem. E'se banyok kojo lae' nak buek......

After going back to my sister house at Damansara, she blame me for the MISTAKE i've done... for seeing a wrong guy. I think a lot about it..!! Yeah.... i really meet a lots of wrong guy... I think its normal....., you learn through it and become mature at the level of your age. Someone pernah nasihatkan aku that kita hanya akan matang melalui cinta, and most important is we will seeing a lots of wrong guy before we meet the right one. HEHEHE....... hope to find one soon.

Most important is I ENJOYED MYLIFE a lots...................

THE UPSETTING DAY'S

After reading Tenggelamnya Kapal Van der Wijck, FROM wellknown HAMKA. I had an idea to wrote a poem, i grab my sketch book, look at each page for a new idea, somehow i was stunned with one of my poem that i wrote specially dedicated to my before-bestfriend, i don't know whether she's still remembered me, till now she is my best-friend........ we always laught together, note down our point of view freely without afraid of the idea to be rejected, she's perfect, she's beautiful, she's smart, sometime i envy these perfect creatures, but most of the time i'm proud to be his friend...............well the moments was so long to past ago. So ...... this poem is for you, i miss you friends ......REGINA.

Today.........I've got a tree

The tree is in the pot

And I place it outside my house

The sun is shinning brightly and...

The win is blowing slowly

The pot is wet and my hand is dirty

I've started my step,

followed the rhythm of leaf at the gelam tree,

And the flowers of hibiscus blooming away.

Telling everybody, that my heart is empty.

Tomorrow will going by

The tears will stop flowing,

And one day you'll forgotted

That today someone is back-stabbing you

That you are totally breakdown and tears apart

As the sand and dirt messed your pants.

When the plant growth higher and bigger!!!!

(1.28am)

-1/10/06-

I've already forgive whoes back-stabbing me, they are human, and human do lots of mistake.

Ye...ye...menang bola...

Harharhar.....gua nak ketawa tahap kingkong punya. Introp lawan bola ngan Fakulti sains, Introp menang 4-2, best gler nih gua isytiharkan sebagai gua punya hadiah birthday paling bermakna walaupun gol tu semua sikit pun dorg tak dedicated kat wa. harharhar.......

Ni dipanggil menang untuk menebus maruah yang tercalar selepas bermain ngan Fakulti hutan, kes bertumbuk tgh padang then kes dorg wat protes walaupun Introp lawan Fakulti hutan menang 2-1, tapi dorg menang protes so keputusannya ktrg kalah 3-0 ngan Fakulti hutan. En. Mat (Pegawai Tadbir) cakap takyah lah bising2, kita main sukan untuk suka2 jerr..... tak guna gak kalo menang protes tp akhirnya menyusahkan org lain..... nak mencari makan. BETUL gak cakap En. Mat yang ktrg sayang nih.

Shah ckp budak2 introp yang nak main, semua dah kecewa taknak turun padang, budak Ittar pun ada yg taknak main. Kita dah confirm takleh masuk final sbb bnyk mata tu kena tolak..... Shah cakap ngan muka marah. Ye la...first ktrg lawan ngn Fac. Kejuteraan ktrg menang 2-1.... memang considered leh ge finalnyer lah.......Kalo tak sebab si Ashadi tu yang cari pasal sampai kena tumbuk, memang smooth jer perjalanan ktrg, time dia kena tumbuk pengadil nampak, time dia lutut kan budak tu sampai berdarah bibir pengadil tak nampak..........hmmmm. It's the name of the game....... what else to say.

Aku tak puas hati aku torture Shah, aku cakap kt di tempat yang benar so buktikan yang kita bleh menang lawan kali ni. Buktikan!!! Walaupun kita takleh masuk final, maruah lagi penting dari piala yang tak seberapa tu. So at last.....we prove it. Ktrg menang 4-2 dalam perlawanan yang sgt memuaskan hati sebab takder bergaduh, takder bertumbuk, takder maki-hamun, even Fakulti sains jaringkan gol, kitrg pun tepuk tangan takder halnyer beb. To be added Fakulti hutan kalah lawan ngn fakulti kejuteraan 4-0.

Kebenaran sentiasa akan terbukti akhirnya. Ada la cakap2 yang menyatakan susah laaa nak pg fakulti pas ni konfirm kena pandang slack. For me, hallo!!!!! Aku tahu spirit faculti hutan macam mana aku dah hampir sepuluh tahun kat faculti ni, spirit ktrg memang kuat mcm family. But one thing most important is if you want to do something, be honest with it and put your pride on it, otherwise mother nature(Hukum Alam) will showed you the way.

Aku tidak takut pada sesuatu yg dinamakan KEBENARAN, if I'm wrong please with the name of God, showed me the right way.
Enought with my bubbling.............

HappY 26 Birthday....

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Nadia Betty(12:01AM): Happy birthday!! Thankx NADIA
Ijan(12.02AM): A lullabye early morning happy birthday song via MMS......LOVE U friends
Umapathy(12:41AM): Hi Yatt.... Selamat Hari Jadi... HEHE
My Big Sis(4:06Am): Happy besday semoga panjang umur d murahkan rezeki dan diringankan jodoh :-) Amboi pepagi buta betul ko sms aku nih misti bangun time anak ko merengek nak susu.
Timah 012(6:57Am): Salam beb.....happy besday!smoge panjang umo n murah rezeki!take care n love ya so much! LOVE U too friends
Ipin(8.28Am): Hepi birthday, ;-) Thankx anak ikan
My Lovely Twin Bro(Adik)(8.58Am): Kak t, eppy bezday. May Allah alwayz luv,blezz n care 4 u :-) May Allah bless and care for you too. I'm proud to be your sister.
Mak(10:58AM): Kak t, epi bday yg ke26.. Smoga pnjng umor,mrh rzeki, n pa2 je la..huhu.. Epi bday, dri adk mimi n mak.. LOVE U where's dad....????????
My Lovely Twin Bro(Abang)(11:32AM); Nenek SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI LAHIR KE-62... Semoga pjg umur & murah rezeki. Harharhar, I'm proud to be your sister even you have to follow every each order that i've made but deep down inside me I love you bro...

Thankx everyone i love ya all !!!!! May Allah bless we all, also guide me to the right way of my journey, may Him gave me the time for me to enjoyed my life and be good to others. And may Him gave me a chance to be who i wanted to be.................Amin Ya Rabbal a'lamin.

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IM in TRAUMATIC!!

I don't know what happen to myself, but since going back to Bagan Datok, i was soooo........... TRYING hard to be NORMAL. And guess what???? I know i didn't. Because first of all, i can't concentrated on study and exam, pending on writting my second journal, i laught a lot!! (note that A LOT means not normal, insane......duh!!!), I just let myself flow away, slide on each day without has schedule for me to follow. I'm like someone that is LOST, but there's no one realise about it.

I just buy whatever come on my head, grab one nice yellow t-shirt, a BUM white watch which stayed cool on my left hand, on my list right now is carlo rino highheel, pink wallet, and goggles jeans. I going back with a very full stomach last night with all those kind of sushi and mee udon at the sushi king. I played bowling almost everyday....... had a life without thinking bout tomorrow, afraid to think about tomorrow, scared to know what will happen to me after this, have a nice day with half of my spirit enjoyed what am i doing and the other half is wondering around like nothing happen. Gorsshhh!!!

I'm suffering, i know bout that, i scared that on day without realised it ....... that i will die. I scared to think bout death, but no one can do anything bout it..... it's on God hand, and we know nothing bout it. I had a lots of planned on my head for tomorrow, for these week, for these month and next month, another 10 years from now, 20 years and at my ages reach 70. The thing is whether i reach that number or not.... thats the main point!!! I don't know what to do with myself. I .................... just don't know.

I become blur