Gorsh..... i dreamt such a weird dream these morning and it looks sooo real till i said to my heart... damt it not againt. I'm tired of these......thats it. This time i seen that guy face clearly and has chat with him, felt releast come out from my heart, and felt that i'm being me. All i can fell that he is quiet young from me.......... and I'm not working here anymore, i work at some place but most important thing is i love that job and i love that place tooo.........
Gorrsshhhh...... these is what we call a dream is a sum up of what you felt, what u afraid, and what you really wants in life....
I AM NOBODY, BUT I AM SPECIAL ON MY OWN WAY.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
My DAY though!!
Alhamdullillah.... things gettin' even better now in my life, just few thing that i still need hardwork and strength to work it up....especially bout' my master degree. I've read a very astonishing couraging books this week which put a stunt on my faces.... and make realise..wow these is life, even she's a jew, we have a few things in common walla... she dislexia.... GOLDIE HAWN, an actress and loving mom to kate hudson (How to lost a guy in 10 days).
Even my relationship with my friends gettin' even more close, i think i would be like nobody without a person that i can call friends ..... we walk all the way throught happy and hard time.... we forgive and we forget!! Thanks Allah for the given of, those entourage.
Bout my ABG, i love u soo much, there's no words can describe it, it just a feeling and connection in our heart that always kept us going. But rather now and then i just put our faith and destiny on God hand. Loving someone so much won't meant a thing if we didn't try to love ourself, family, people surround us and most of all God. I try to put a barrier for that, even deep down inside me ...... you still the one!!!
Even my relationship with my friends gettin' even more close, i think i would be like nobody without a person that i can call friends ..... we walk all the way throught happy and hard time.... we forgive and we forget!! Thanks Allah for the given of, those entourage.
Bout my ABG, i love u soo much, there's no words can describe it, it just a feeling and connection in our heart that always kept us going. But rather now and then i just put our faith and destiny on God hand. Loving someone so much won't meant a thing if we didn't try to love ourself, family, people surround us and most of all God. I try to put a barrier for that, even deep down inside me ...... you still the one!!!
Friday, January 16, 2009
FRIENDS
One of my friend gave a new comments on my friendster ......... semoga tidak melupakan kawan lama walaupun mempunyai kawan baru........... Aku hanya mampu tersenyum..... Its very unprofesional of me if i'm gettin' mad and angry......woooo hhooo.... u tahu ker what happen, u dengar sebelah side memang u will blame me. BUT if i stated her attitude toward certain thing... i think you will came to me.... and said... you really RIGHT gurl. Hmmmm just malas nak gaduh2... lantak lah berapa puluh juta org that she gathered as her crony....hello i do not care. ME is me.......... Let me calm for a while.... thats it.
Susah nak describe hubungan kawan sesama kawan ni.... its a relationship between two human being. kalau kita berkawan ngan ikan peliharaan kita or kucing ker... let say any pets la... they have no expression no emotion. with human ni totally diffrences la...... Take it secara matang la.
LANTAK LAAAA!!!!!!!
Susah nak describe hubungan kawan sesama kawan ni.... its a relationship between two human being. kalau kita berkawan ngan ikan peliharaan kita or kucing ker... let say any pets la... they have no expression no emotion. with human ni totally diffrences la...... Take it secara matang la.
LANTAK LAAAA!!!!!!!
Monday, January 12, 2009
SYUKUR KU SEDAR
Hmmmm.......Ipin cerita kt aku yang dia bru jer break ngan adik Syed, kesian lak aku nengok dia. Entahlah i donno, aku just cakap bawa busykan diri ko so ko tak banyak sangat pikir, then bila ko ditempat yang benar insyaallah tuhan akan tunjuk something.
I just kept thinking when i've break-up, hahaha....pengalaman yang sgt2 diffrence ngan Ipin, maybe aku tak terlalu cinta sgt ngan Ex aku that's why biler break, aku rasa satu perasaan yang sgt release............. free. Happy!! Tu jer yang aku rasa, walaupun memula tu risau gak what my friends will think bout' me, nak nak pulak aku sekarang nih dah di chop playgurl, jap jap ngan laki ni jap jap ngan org lain, but for me hidup misti diteruskan, mana yang salah kita perbetulkan dan sesungguhnya terimalah kenyataan yang aku ni manusia bukannya malaikat. Manusia yang sgt kudus!!!! And what's not kill me will always make me stronger. Thats why aper yg org cakap tentang aku, aku just take note, kalo salah aku, then aku perbetulkan otherwise..... hmmm lalalalaaa.
Mungkin org akan cakap ko nih tak serik2. HHMMM.... susah nak describe sebab setiap org generate diffrence idea when they have a problem. For me which is past is always past, I'll take it as a lesson but it won't stop me to just be me be myself and be happy. Like what i said before, mana yang salah aku, aku akan perbetulkan otherwise hhhmmmm sendiri mau ingat laa....
Alhamdullillah...... right now, I really happy with myself and of coz I have someone on the busket..... hahaha. Not gonna reveal yet his identiti. Even I know my friend knows that i have someone but they didn't know who is him. I want to stick it that way, coz i really need time to explain to all my friends. Tapi aku tak nafikan yang aku happy yang susah nak diluahkan dalam perkataan. Mcm diawang-awangan, mabuk kepayang agaknya. hahahaha!!!!! Ari ahad aritu aku ge mandi sungai kat ulu langat, then ada jame sikit kt pekan tu, then aku nampak kereta Ex-orggiler tu. All i felt is nothing, coz i'm yeah tgh angau........ i think it is good for a new start. Aku dapat balik siapa diri aku........
Hehe....LUCKY is when you always has a bunch of friends to chear you up...... always has a guy on the altar to reach your hands, and lucky to have family to support you. Thanks GOD. I WILL ALWAYS APPRECIATE WHO I AM.
I just kept thinking when i've break-up, hahaha....pengalaman yang sgt2 diffrence ngan Ipin, maybe aku tak terlalu cinta sgt ngan Ex aku that's why biler break, aku rasa satu perasaan yang sgt release............. free. Happy!! Tu jer yang aku rasa, walaupun memula tu risau gak what my friends will think bout' me, nak nak pulak aku sekarang nih dah di chop playgurl, jap jap ngan laki ni jap jap ngan org lain, but for me hidup misti diteruskan, mana yang salah kita perbetulkan dan sesungguhnya terimalah kenyataan yang aku ni manusia bukannya malaikat. Manusia yang sgt kudus!!!! And what's not kill me will always make me stronger. Thats why aper yg org cakap tentang aku, aku just take note, kalo salah aku, then aku perbetulkan otherwise..... hmmm lalalalaaa.
Mungkin org akan cakap ko nih tak serik2. HHMMM.... susah nak describe sebab setiap org generate diffrence idea when they have a problem. For me which is past is always past, I'll take it as a lesson but it won't stop me to just be me be myself and be happy. Like what i said before, mana yang salah aku, aku akan perbetulkan otherwise hhhmmmm sendiri mau ingat laa....
Alhamdullillah...... right now, I really happy with myself and of coz I have someone on the busket..... hahaha. Not gonna reveal yet his identiti. Even I know my friend knows that i have someone but they didn't know who is him. I want to stick it that way, coz i really need time to explain to all my friends. Tapi aku tak nafikan yang aku happy yang susah nak diluahkan dalam perkataan. Mcm diawang-awangan, mabuk kepayang agaknya. hahahaha!!!!! Ari ahad aritu aku ge mandi sungai kat ulu langat, then ada jame sikit kt pekan tu, then aku nampak kereta Ex-orggiler tu. All i felt is nothing, coz i'm yeah tgh angau........ i think it is good for a new start. Aku dapat balik siapa diri aku........
Hehe....LUCKY is when you always has a bunch of friends to chear you up...... always has a guy on the altar to reach your hands, and lucky to have family to support you. Thanks GOD. I WILL ALWAYS APPRECIATE WHO I AM.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Ku BAhagiA!!!!
I`ve found someone which really put a smile on my day, really gave me courage to just go-on fight for your own survivor, whose always laugh at my stupid joke, who always said that i`ve beautiful even i know that i`m not, really want to just be by his side, planned stupid thing in life in just a sudden. He really complete me till i just felt like buhbye to all my Ex-es and the guy who always chase me for good. He really somebody which i always dreamt before. I just laught throughout the day becoz his LOVE is in the air. Thanks GOD for giving me someone which i can call my-other-half. All i hope is the bless of the day that we having together. AMIN..............
Friday, December 12, 2008
I'vE FoUnD a tRueLy IdiOT
Huh!! some sort of wasting my time when we happen to meet someone which really-really bluff of the day. Some how i kept talking to myself that calm down it is just a learning lesson to your own life. YOU will LEARN something from these, and most of all have fun with life....you go gurl i know u can make it!!!......... I still kept wondering, (even when my head said stop it gurl!!!) I wondering how a married guy had other relationship and how a wife tackle the problem when she already knew that his husband has other women apart of their marriage, she take no action/do nothing. Huh, lovely couple, they ARE meant to each other......hahaha so funny.......
I think in ISLAM itself has a limit to each tolerant or patience level in our life and other people life. Thats why we have sin(dosa) and we have a reward(pahala) for every action that we have taken, but when a muslim didn't know how to segregate his action, huh why you still concidered yourself as a muslim. Why you still commit a prayer if your bodied still acting an inmoral attitude. DuuuHHHH..... really no answer for my question!!!! hhmmmmm........
Maybe (MY THEORY).... just maybe that person has been too much being controlled by his/her parents soo they have uncertainty in life a behavior that he/she concealed throughout their maturity and ingrained as a revenge taken in a way to punish the person whom had controlled their life. Yup!! Being a MELAYU the tradition taugh us to said nothing to what our parents do and obeyed thier command (points there....uh..huh). So each individual will had an inner thought throughout their growing life, that they affraid to let it free...some will take in positive way while others in negative way.........hhmmm
In my first semester in Dr. Mano class we discuss about Human Psychology and Human attitude, off coz from the famous Alice H. Eagly and Shelly Chaiken. Once that still kept in my head is a human will response to certain stimuli(situation) and that person will response the psychology tendency (keinginan untuk bertindak mengikut keupayaan pemikiran individu tersebut) which well influence by thier cognitive responses (knowledge/thoughts) and affective responses (feeling/emotion) and form a behavioral response which is well known as the action.
HAHAHA.....too much watching TV(criminal minds).
ME.......well to settle it out, you have to have faith in yourself and most important is dignity inside you, from this you will built the person that YOU want to be inside YOU. Have faith have dignity. Human will always reacted like a HUMAN, all you need to remembered is they are human you are human, they make a MISTAKE and sure you`ll do too. So fare and square relationship between you and other people. That's what i kept into my head, and became who i am today.
HUH.... i'm felt soo happy with all my findings, its time for me to start my work..... kihkihkih semalam adalah hari cuti untuk seluruh selangor, maka kami2 yang banyak kerjer nih dah mati kutu sebab ramai giler staff yang cuti panjang. AKU...hehe nasib baik Shah ada, after going to maulan having a breakfast ngan chadoks, nisak and exit. I datang kerjer sensorg memang takder org accept pakcik indon yang ngah wat renovate kat lab baru. Fine, kete shah ader kat parking, tapi dia entah hilang kemana. Dah la aku ni penakut sikit.Nasib baik ijan SMS cakap nak dtg wat keje then Exit pun SMS nak dtg teman.....pwweeeehh. LEGA.... after settle the work at 12.30pm ijan ajak rush ge Sg. besi, exit pun nak follow. nak ge cari pos office pastu ketiga2 dara pingitan ni dah kelaparan, eehhhppppmm makan kat sg. besi ker? then wa suggest, alang2 dah datng cni baik ge Endah Parade BKT Jalil jer, makan kat cna siap leh KAROX lagi. Tapi nak dijadikan cerita, tempat karox penuh free kul 3.30...humangaih, berakar bontot nak menunggu. jeng jeng jeng...jalan punya jalan.... ktrg decide ge bowling main 2 frame murah gler RM7.50 satu kepala(tunjuk kad pelajar). game first kalah 1 point jer ngan ijan, second game wa menang. kuikui. hui bleh tahan gak aku main bowling. tapi pastu wa sakit sebelah bontot, sebab dah lama tak streching tetiba angkat benda berat. hehe.......... chow!!
I think in ISLAM itself has a limit to each tolerant or patience level in our life and other people life. Thats why we have sin(dosa) and we have a reward(pahala) for every action that we have taken, but when a muslim didn't know how to segregate his action, huh why you still concidered yourself as a muslim. Why you still commit a prayer if your bodied still acting an inmoral attitude. DuuuHHHH..... really no answer for my question!!!! hhmmmmm........
Maybe (MY THEORY).... just maybe that person has been too much being controlled by his/her parents soo they have uncertainty in life a behavior that he/she concealed throughout their maturity and ingrained as a revenge taken in a way to punish the person whom had controlled their life. Yup!! Being a MELAYU the tradition taugh us to said nothing to what our parents do and obeyed thier command (points there....uh..huh). So each individual will had an inner thought throughout their growing life, that they affraid to let it free...some will take in positive way while others in negative way.........hhmmm
In my first semester in Dr. Mano class we discuss about Human Psychology and Human attitude, off coz from the famous Alice H. Eagly and Shelly Chaiken. Once that still kept in my head is a human will response to certain stimuli(situation) and that person will response the psychology tendency (keinginan untuk bertindak mengikut keupayaan pemikiran individu tersebut) which well influence by thier cognitive responses (knowledge/thoughts) and affective responses (feeling/emotion) and form a behavioral response which is well known as the action.
HAHAHA.....too much watching TV(criminal minds).
ME.......well to settle it out, you have to have faith in yourself and most important is dignity inside you, from this you will built the person that YOU want to be inside YOU. Have faith have dignity. Human will always reacted like a HUMAN, all you need to remembered is they are human you are human, they make a MISTAKE and sure you`ll do too. So fare and square relationship between you and other people. That's what i kept into my head, and became who i am today.
HUH.... i'm felt soo happy with all my findings, its time for me to start my work..... kihkihkih semalam adalah hari cuti untuk seluruh selangor, maka kami2 yang banyak kerjer nih dah mati kutu sebab ramai giler staff yang cuti panjang. AKU...hehe nasib baik Shah ada, after going to maulan having a breakfast ngan chadoks, nisak and exit. I datang kerjer sensorg memang takder org accept pakcik indon yang ngah wat renovate kat lab baru. Fine, kete shah ader kat parking, tapi dia entah hilang kemana. Dah la aku ni penakut sikit.Nasib baik ijan SMS cakap nak dtg wat keje then Exit pun SMS nak dtg teman.....pwweeeehh. LEGA.... after settle the work at 12.30pm ijan ajak rush ge Sg. besi, exit pun nak follow. nak ge cari pos office pastu ketiga2 dara pingitan ni dah kelaparan, eehhhppppmm makan kat sg. besi ker? then wa suggest, alang2 dah datng cni baik ge Endah Parade BKT Jalil jer, makan kat cna siap leh KAROX lagi. Tapi nak dijadikan cerita, tempat karox penuh free kul 3.30...humangaih, berakar bontot nak menunggu. jeng jeng jeng...jalan punya jalan.... ktrg decide ge bowling main 2 frame murah gler RM7.50 satu kepala(tunjuk kad pelajar). game first kalah 1 point jer ngan ijan, second game wa menang. kuikui. hui bleh tahan gak aku main bowling. tapi pastu wa sakit sebelah bontot, sebab dah lama tak streching tetiba angkat benda berat. hehe.......... chow!!
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