Harharhar.... i'm here

Hahaha......I'm going back to my kampung tomorrow. Gorsshh, i was soo nervous that's it. U know, my relationship with my father is a little bit.....problems!! So, duh!! well at least i followed his ordered to break up with him(X-BF no.3). So i owe nothing from that........ I'm single now!! So i very appreciate when i'm going back that no one will ask..."Bila nak kawen...!!" question. It's totally a preassure for me, when i'm totally not ready for that yet, and most important is i didn't find yet a prince that will shine my shining armour....whatever the words is!!! That's why i just grab whoever guy which pass me by; because of the preassure they made. The most important is ... i just don't wanna let them down. To be honest, I'M NOT READY yet. I hope they understand.

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I miss padi field, i miss to smell the air the river, i miss my CLEO magazine collection(since form 1) remaja magazine (since standard 6) guess how much my mother look at that as a profit, she already has a buyer for that, miss my cat Hadder, miss my siblings, miss my parents, miss my nenek, miss to panjat pokok, skrg musim durian and manggis............ Duh durian.....uwekk!! I hate durian. Miss to play badminton with my little cousin, Am, twins cousin imah and ihah, miss masakan kampung, ulam, i miss everything...... its the place where i start to be who i became today. It's hard to be an adult, maybe because i have soo much joy in my kids life........kahkahkah..... what a stupid thinking!!

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Sooo..... i hope my relationship with dad will be OK. Still dup dap dup dap. Guys... wish me luck, and do pray for me....... HUH gotta to face it.

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