Well, aku demam for the past 3 days.......till now, still kepala ni weng weng lagi. Then malas seksgt nak pg PK or clinic.....ini memang kepakaran aku, kalo sakit jer sokmo malas nak ge klinik...hospital, huh haram....... I hate hospital, aku masih ingat lagi masa umur aku 5thn masa ktrg satu family lebih bnyk kat hospital dari duduk umah.....i hate the smell, i hate the surrounding, i hate felling at that time......i hate hospital. Sampaikan baru2 ni kakak aku bersalin, ktrg bersiap nak ge hospital tapi my brother just buat donno jer, then i ask him...oi...awat hang tak siap lagi...then with his slumber face, he told us he don't want to go. I just...what the hell you think, she your sister. Then aku buat muka slumber tanya dia...naper tak nak pg..... then dia cakap...aku takut bau hospital. OK...trauma just the same as me. Huh!!!
Life just happen to be so.......difficult for me.......'difficult' is it the right words. I donno, my insomnia just gettin even worst, thats what i'm affraid off. Tak boleh tido langsung sampai pukul 5pg to 6pg....baru mata aku terlelap. Everyday for the past 2months.....soo its totally effected my life, my mood, my work, my study......everything. I don't know what i'm affraid off, what i'm scare off....i really want to see a psychologist........but can we trust them. Well, my answer is no. The fact and the trust is i hate life.......i don`t care if i'm die........ but baru2 ni aku terdengar ceramah agama yg said that kita tak baik meminta kematian dari Allah........huh. Ok I'll........... so nak mintak aper!! I try to acted as a tough gurl but the fact is I'm not.....
Bout my relationship with my BF......huh, kan bagus kalau kita tahu dalam hidup kita ni bila kita dilahirkan, siapa jodoh kita dan bila kita akan mati..... we can prepared everything.... not end up to just put a puzzle into your husky life. The moment i going back to my kampung before fasting season, is the moments that i just put our relationship on God hand. I just dont rely to anyone, i just be me ......and my family. Aku taknak terlalu mengharap dengan aper2. Cuma i put a guts on one thing that is, if i got PTD and past the exam, I'll just leave EVERYTHING here. JUST EVERYTHING. Life seem nothing left for me here in UPM, just a nostalgia felling, since its been 7 years i'm staying here. I'm not gonna finish my Master Degree......i never plan to finish it.... Only Allah can change it. I love to travelled, well, being a diplomate is something have never come out in my mind....but i love to try it.
I AM NOBODY, BUT I AM SPECIAL ON MY OWN WAY.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
The Day After Tomorrow....
XTVT semalam.....teman BF ge beli bumper Satria GTI kat kedai Ane' kat kajang.... beFore that we going to D'Limau Nipis at Bangi, enjoying our lunch with those lovely ikan pekasam that always come out from my dream the last two week...its not totally a lunch break coz we reach there at 11.45am so sort of a "Mengular" punya break........its fun even we have a little bit quarrel...ngahngahngah.....but then I pow him with lunch for me and my car too.....isi minyak laaa... gorsh...i have to save my money till these month...... got not enough to survive.....huhu. Cian BF wa yang selalu kena buli...harharhar
Actually, aku baru beli handphone baru so just nak try dia punya aplication and trying to download it into my comp to judge the performance or quality of the picture interm oh....haha merapu jer kerje aku ni. Got to stop here its 10.35am, time for me to have breakfast, then will continue with my job at LAB........hope no Foreigner there.........I'm not hate them not double standard them but.........please out off my way when doing my job. Well i think i should write about foreigner student....but not today.....will be soon...tata
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Betul dari apa yang aku baca sebelum sebelum ni..........yang lelaki suka dilayan macam kanak2 or anak2 kecil....sangat manja dan kadang2 mengada2, suka cemburu tapi cukup bosan kalo awek dorg yg kuat cemburu, kuat mengongkong tapi tak suka di kongkong, suka bebel tapi cukup fed-up kalo awek dorg yg bebel....nak makan slipar ker??.......iya betul...tak tipu.
Hehe...it's quiet complicated relation between man's and women......I still trying to figure out what make a person can attrack to other person which soon will became his/their other-half. And pattern some of their boyfriend ni lebih kurang sama ngan dorg punya X-BOY yg sbelum2 nih.......hmmmm. Adakah itu takdir??? Might be...might be not!!!
But for me my BF ni is absolutely and totally difference ngan semua BOY yang pernah aku rapat sebelum ni. He's also out of a person which i imagine to became my boyfriend. Even Ajib pun sama ngan muka bdk freelance Shah Alam yg tak-berapa-nak-menjadi-balak aku dulu tu.
OK out off that question for awhile.
Aku giler membaca buku sekarang ni.......One on my hand is READING LOLITA IN TEHRAN, from Professor Azar Nafisi. At first 50 page of these book is hell too boring, but than it's became more OK side of it then......quiet interesting. I`ll take it as i attend Dr. Manohar class which we has to learn how to gave critics to JOURNAL........ What i was trill and a bit puzzle is the cronology of Islamic Rezolution of Pahlavi family (sekarang dibawah lindungan suaka politik di Perancis) which i think one day if no action taken will hunt our own country. The political problem, the corruption amongst misruled, penyalahgunaan kuasa oleh org yg mempunyai kuasa goverment for example.....menyebab dan menggalakkan rakyat untuk melakukan bantahan at first secara diam...and lastly it will became like confrontation and rusuhan and bla bla.....
Its easy as kerajaan harus mendengar suara hati rakyat. Siapalah kerajaan kalo memerintah tanpa rakyat........ Sama ngan memansuhkan AUKU.....and some of artikel which i read through newspaper mengatakan yg pelajar sekarang dah kurang kualiti banding pelajar dulu2 tahun 80-an zaman MCKK and what ever bla bla... Nak ada kualitinyer kebenda kalo hak ktrg bersuara disekat....kalo berpolitik kearah pembangkang sikit dah diugut dibuang Universiti.... So whats your choise then. And most important thing is kalo pelajar dulu2 tu berkualiti...what the hell with those rasuah berleluasa, gila kuasa, menggunakan hak untuk kepentingan diri.......tanpa memikirkan akibat pada org lain.... Bukankah org dulu2 yang membenttuk apa yg jadi pada ktrg sekarang nih.....hah jawab la....???
Org sekarang dah semakin buta....buta nak menilai mana satu benar dan mana satu salah. There`s too many hipocrite people...especially in politic,it's totally hard to judge.......prove me if i`m wrong.
So my next list TO-READ books is from Robert Ludlum....THE ROAD TO OMAHA........gtg
Hehe...it's quiet complicated relation between man's and women......I still trying to figure out what make a person can attrack to other person which soon will became his/their other-half. And pattern some of their boyfriend ni lebih kurang sama ngan dorg punya X-BOY yg sbelum2 nih.......hmmmm. Adakah itu takdir??? Might be...might be not!!!
But for me my BF ni is absolutely and totally difference ngan semua BOY yang pernah aku rapat sebelum ni. He's also out of a person which i imagine to became my boyfriend. Even Ajib pun sama ngan muka bdk freelance Shah Alam yg tak-berapa-nak-menjadi-balak aku dulu tu.
OK out off that question for awhile.
Aku giler membaca buku sekarang ni.......One on my hand is READING LOLITA IN TEHRAN, from Professor Azar Nafisi. At first 50 page of these book is hell too boring, but than it's became more OK side of it then......quiet interesting. I`ll take it as i attend Dr. Manohar class which we has to learn how to gave critics to JOURNAL........ What i was trill and a bit puzzle is the cronology of Islamic Rezolution of Pahlavi family (sekarang dibawah lindungan suaka politik di Perancis) which i think one day if no action taken will hunt our own country. The political problem, the corruption amongst misruled, penyalahgunaan kuasa oleh org yg mempunyai kuasa goverment for example.....menyebab dan menggalakkan rakyat untuk melakukan bantahan at first secara diam...and lastly it will became like confrontation and rusuhan and bla bla.....
Its easy as kerajaan harus mendengar suara hati rakyat. Siapalah kerajaan kalo memerintah tanpa rakyat........ Sama ngan memansuhkan AUKU.....and some of artikel which i read through newspaper mengatakan yg pelajar sekarang dah kurang kualiti banding pelajar dulu2 tahun 80-an zaman MCKK and what ever bla bla... Nak ada kualitinyer kebenda kalo hak ktrg bersuara disekat....kalo berpolitik kearah pembangkang sikit dah diugut dibuang Universiti.... So whats your choise then. And most important thing is kalo pelajar dulu2 tu berkualiti...what the hell with those rasuah berleluasa, gila kuasa, menggunakan hak untuk kepentingan diri.......tanpa memikirkan akibat pada org lain.... Bukankah org dulu2 yang membenttuk apa yg jadi pada ktrg sekarang nih.....hah jawab la....???
Org sekarang dah semakin buta....buta nak menilai mana satu benar dan mana satu salah. There`s too many hipocrite people...especially in politic,it's totally hard to judge.......prove me if i`m wrong.
So my next list TO-READ books is from Robert Ludlum....THE ROAD TO OMAHA........gtg
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Hari yg sgt mem'BLUR'kan.....pandang kanan Uma ntah hilang ke mana, pandang kiri Epi pun tak datang kerjer, pandang belakang si ijan nun dah kat terengganu.........hah..left me alone here by myself. Nak keluar ngan BF pun dia dah 'berhangen' gegiler dgn diriku ini.....harharhar. Maka, i'll stayed here all by myself. Syahmi cuti hari ni, so dia dtg UPM ajak Krol teman dia pg MAHA. Actually, aku pun nak pg MAHA, tapi dah janji nak ge ngan BF, better i stick with him, otherwise he will chopped me like a chicken.
Well, funny things happen to me, kat TV famous ngan PROMO filem susuk, ala yang..."Cu tolong nenek nyanyikan satu lagu!!!!" ... than aku selalu balas balik sambil menyanyikan lagu NEGARAKU..... haha funny right!! Sambil dgn angkuhnya cakap....har diri la...diri laa... So start from than dah 5 hari straight tido aku tak lena, than mimpi yg pelik2 dan ntah hapa2 sangat, termasuk la pg td, aku mimpi ada something like Zombie serang family ktrg kat kampung, memang bermati-matian aku ngan ayah berperang ngan Zombie tu....bila bangun dari tido jerr dah letih seksgt mcm lari round padang.
Semalam punya mimpi pun ngeri gak...... travel mcm lam cerita KING KONG plus CROCADILE DUNDEE. Aku duduk ditengah2 paya than ada crocadile tgh aim nak ngap aku... hiiiii takut tau, pastu aku dah berjaya lari, then tetiba jatuh dari atas pokok gorilla yg garang gegiler datang serang aku...after that aku dah terjaga dari tido, dgn perasaan yg sgt takut. Itu belum lagi bab mimpi umah lama nenek, aku tgh relex kat tangga, bila tersedar jer dari tido terus aku teringat nak balik kampung, than in the sudden i just realise than HALLO, umah nenek tu mana ada lagi, umah tu kan dah roboh........after that... I CRY.
Ha...padan muka, memain lagi ngan somthing like that, ko tu dah la lemah semangat..... Actually sebelum ni, I mean when i was in high school la, I was so tough ngan benda2 ghaib OR alam yg lain ni. Kalo org lain kena kaco, aku musti steady giler, even masa kat KMR dulu aku duduk kat bilik 303, aku selalu kena tinggal sensorg lam bilik tu. Rupa2 nyer kakak faci yg duduk sebilik ngan aku tu tak balik bilik sebab tak tahan malam2 dia selalu dengar org ketuk pintu nak masuk. Sampai tahap dia demam. Walhal, aku relex jer lam bilik tu....takder saper nak kaco. Pas 2 tahun blok aku tu dijadikan blok lelaki, bdk lelaki tu pun kena kaco gak, siap kena ubah katil lagi, terus dia dah tak tido bilik tu sampai ke sudah................
It all start bila aku, lan, CT, fuad duduk kat umah ibu masa tahun satu degree ....RUMAH PAHANG kat Cameroon Highland. CT yang kena kaco memulanyer, last2 ngan aku sekali dia usik....sakit betul hati aku. Suruh si Fuad ngan Lan sentri, bleh bdk 2 ekor ni ge bantai tido siap berdengkur ngan mengigau bercakap yg bukan2.......tension betul aku. Aku bengang, aku amek Yasin than aku baca tetengah malam tu. FED UP betul, dah la ktrg baru leps Daki Gng Brinchang........besoknyer nak Daki Gng Berembun........benda ni boleh cari pasal ngan aku, mana tak berangin satu badan aku ni dah la letih, tak bleh tido lak tu. Tapi tak berhasilpun pembacaan Yasin aku tu....sebab tak amek air semayang. hehe. Than ibu datang rescue aku yg tgh tension membaca Yasin tu. Than dia suruh tido, dia janji benda tu tak kaco lagi...... Ala benda tu kaco sampai ker sudah, sampai subuh baru OK.
Pas balik daki gng berembun, time ktrg nak berkemas nak balik, ibu datang bertanya apa kes yg semalam tu. Masa tu lan ngan Fuad berkhemas kat bilik dorg, aku nga CT tido kat ruang tamu, almaklum la...bayarpun murah. hehe.... Rerupanya yg ganggu semlm tu panjaga umah ni, umah Pahang jugak selalu menjadi Umah persinggahan Sultan Pahang kalo bercuti kat Cameron. Patut la siti cakap ada org pakai baju kuning halau dia keluar..... aku tak nampak tapi aku dapat rasa, struggle gak aku ngan benda tu sebab time dia tarik kaki aku than aku melawan, buktinyer, bila chek jer kaki aku dah biru gegiler. HHmmmm mistik tul. Nak lebih mistik pas balik daki gunung, ktrg tido sekejap sebab letih, Fuad, Ct ngan Lan bermimpi benda yang Exactly sama, kecuali aku yg mimpi lain sikit dari dorg................i`ll kept it as my secret.
So, moral from that story, takder moral aper2 pun.....just hati2 lah memilih umah tumpangan. Kalo korg ni tak der hati dan perasaan...baik korg tanya awal2 kepada tuan umah tu...tanya cam ni...."Makcik umah ni ada hantu tak???....saya ni lemah semangat!!" Biar jujur. Jgn menyusahkan diri sendiri.
So start dari kejadian itu, kalo aku masuk hutan, kuasa keberanian aku ni dah semakin berkurangan. Kalo daki gunung dolo2 yg selalu kena attack si Finie ngan CT(Wajib!!)....Sekarang mangsa dah semakin bertambah iaitu AKU...hehe. Dia Menyanyi tepi telinga la.......tetiba jer zappp...dah kat sebelah aku, mana tak mencicit aku lari, hampeh tul!! Kalo dolo2 nak ge buang air kecil lam hutan 2 org pun ...jalan....sekarang 4 org pun aku takut lagi..... mana tak nyer...tetiba jer...bayang2 warna putih rambut lurus....nyeettt...lalu depan aku, cancel terkucil. Sanggup biar batu karang.
Haha...enought bubbling from me....
Well, funny things happen to me, kat TV famous ngan PROMO filem susuk, ala yang..."Cu tolong nenek nyanyikan satu lagu!!!!" ... than aku selalu balas balik sambil menyanyikan lagu NEGARAKU..... haha funny right!! Sambil dgn angkuhnya cakap....har diri la...diri laa... So start from than dah 5 hari straight tido aku tak lena, than mimpi yg pelik2 dan ntah hapa2 sangat, termasuk la pg td, aku mimpi ada something like Zombie serang family ktrg kat kampung, memang bermati-matian aku ngan ayah berperang ngan Zombie tu....bila bangun dari tido jerr dah letih seksgt mcm lari round padang.
Semalam punya mimpi pun ngeri gak...... travel mcm lam cerita KING KONG plus CROCADILE DUNDEE. Aku duduk ditengah2 paya than ada crocadile tgh aim nak ngap aku... hiiiii takut tau, pastu aku dah berjaya lari, then tetiba jatuh dari atas pokok gorilla yg garang gegiler datang serang aku...after that aku dah terjaga dari tido, dgn perasaan yg sgt takut. Itu belum lagi bab mimpi umah lama nenek, aku tgh relex kat tangga, bila tersedar jer dari tido terus aku teringat nak balik kampung, than in the sudden i just realise than HALLO, umah nenek tu mana ada lagi, umah tu kan dah roboh........after that... I CRY.
Ha...padan muka, memain lagi ngan somthing like that, ko tu dah la lemah semangat..... Actually sebelum ni, I mean when i was in high school la, I was so tough ngan benda2 ghaib OR alam yg lain ni. Kalo org lain kena kaco, aku musti steady giler, even masa kat KMR dulu aku duduk kat bilik 303, aku selalu kena tinggal sensorg lam bilik tu. Rupa2 nyer kakak faci yg duduk sebilik ngan aku tu tak balik bilik sebab tak tahan malam2 dia selalu dengar org ketuk pintu nak masuk. Sampai tahap dia demam. Walhal, aku relex jer lam bilik tu....takder saper nak kaco. Pas 2 tahun blok aku tu dijadikan blok lelaki, bdk lelaki tu pun kena kaco gak, siap kena ubah katil lagi, terus dia dah tak tido bilik tu sampai ke sudah................
It all start bila aku, lan, CT, fuad duduk kat umah ibu masa tahun satu degree ....RUMAH PAHANG kat Cameroon Highland. CT yang kena kaco memulanyer, last2 ngan aku sekali dia usik....sakit betul hati aku. Suruh si Fuad ngan Lan sentri, bleh bdk 2 ekor ni ge bantai tido siap berdengkur ngan mengigau bercakap yg bukan2.......tension betul aku. Aku bengang, aku amek Yasin than aku baca tetengah malam tu. FED UP betul, dah la ktrg baru leps Daki Gng Brinchang........besoknyer nak Daki Gng Berembun........benda ni boleh cari pasal ngan aku, mana tak berangin satu badan aku ni dah la letih, tak bleh tido lak tu. Tapi tak berhasilpun pembacaan Yasin aku tu....sebab tak amek air semayang. hehe. Than ibu datang rescue aku yg tgh tension membaca Yasin tu. Than dia suruh tido, dia janji benda tu tak kaco lagi...... Ala benda tu kaco sampai ker sudah, sampai subuh baru OK.
Pas balik daki gng berembun, time ktrg nak berkemas nak balik, ibu datang bertanya apa kes yg semalam tu. Masa tu lan ngan Fuad berkhemas kat bilik dorg, aku nga CT tido kat ruang tamu, almaklum la...bayarpun murah. hehe.... Rerupanya yg ganggu semlm tu panjaga umah ni, umah Pahang jugak selalu menjadi Umah persinggahan Sultan Pahang kalo bercuti kat Cameron. Patut la siti cakap ada org pakai baju kuning halau dia keluar..... aku tak nampak tapi aku dapat rasa, struggle gak aku ngan benda tu sebab time dia tarik kaki aku than aku melawan, buktinyer, bila chek jer kaki aku dah biru gegiler. HHmmmm mistik tul. Nak lebih mistik pas balik daki gunung, ktrg tido sekejap sebab letih, Fuad, Ct ngan Lan bermimpi benda yang Exactly sama, kecuali aku yg mimpi lain sikit dari dorg................i`ll kept it as my secret.
So, moral from that story, takder moral aper2 pun.....just hati2 lah memilih umah tumpangan. Kalo korg ni tak der hati dan perasaan...baik korg tanya awal2 kepada tuan umah tu...tanya cam ni...."Makcik umah ni ada hantu tak???....saya ni lemah semangat!!" Biar jujur. Jgn menyusahkan diri sendiri.
So start dari kejadian itu, kalo aku masuk hutan, kuasa keberanian aku ni dah semakin berkurangan. Kalo daki gunung dolo2 yg selalu kena attack si Finie ngan CT(Wajib!!)....Sekarang mangsa dah semakin bertambah iaitu AKU...hehe. Dia Menyanyi tepi telinga la.......tetiba jer zappp...dah kat sebelah aku, mana tak mencicit aku lari, hampeh tul!! Kalo dolo2 nak ge buang air kecil lam hutan 2 org pun ...jalan....sekarang 4 org pun aku takut lagi..... mana tak nyer...tetiba jer...bayang2 warna putih rambut lurus....nyeettt...lalu depan aku, cancel terkucil. Sanggup biar batu karang.
Haha...enought bubbling from me....
Monday, August 11, 2008
I'll Be ....totally MAD
Duhhh....
I`m so spechless today....aarrgghhh god help me!! huh...the story is like these.I was totally in my monday boring mood....so i jump website....jump...jump...read...jump again...then duh!!....got to Between My leg...blogspot....who`s the hell these man is.....oh malaysian....oouuwww ooo engku emran...the famous man maried to Era fazira la.... than see his diary...jeng jeng jeng. His going to Junn wedding which is his staff yesterday at seri kembangan. The date was on sunday...and that means the wedding was on saturday...cool yeah...i`ll tried to figure out from suria fm wedsite but the hell gateway timeout has come out. I think my body cell was tranforms to became a hulk hogens lady...... I do...even no one have ever seen it... damn i'm in the hell out of me... i can proof it.!!!
I msg my BF and ask what the hell happen here....u said ur cousin wedding. The wedding`s held at bangi....are u trying u fishy out with me... i know you have no cousin in bangi.....but i just shut my mouth up because i think that was your privacy and i`m respect u, maybe you wants time with your family......than duh...drama...drama...and drama... got it.....i'm sick of it.....
Please laaa....if you don't wants me to attend you sister's wedding...just discussed it with me. Just say it. I think i have no probs with that...... but what makes me sooooo.....hotty absolutely angry here is.... u don't even gave me much space for me to enjoy mylife either....(I'm gonna cry right now!!) U controlled me 24/7, you controlled with whom i should go out.......u controlled at what time i should reach home...... I'm not the easy-stupidity-kampung gurls la....i have life....i have friends .......i knows my friends much longer than i know you.......they are more like my family than you ....to be honest.
Everyweek my friends ask me to join their recreation activities ....kayaking, water rafting, camping, even i have to cancel my trip to candat sotong and utmostly travell to indonesia to climb mount merapi and see candi borobodur, i have to cancel all around because i know u won't aloud me to go...because what...because i love you. For God sake.......... U didn`t even respect my self or even respect my vision in life.....what u know....u just want everything according to what your thinking.....u never ask whether i`m hurt or not.........but i`m absolutely hurt right now.
i have to change my life to 360 degree after meet you, i have to stay home waiting for your called, if you felt boring than u will call me, if not than i have to stay surround those stupid wall.......or stayed 10km around my house, so when u need me, i`d be just READY to go.
Huh..more like i'm stayed in militry school.
huh.......enough for today......i've really got headache.
I`m so spechless today....aarrgghhh god help me!! huh...the story is like these.I was totally in my monday boring mood....so i jump website....jump...jump...read...jump again...then duh!!....got to Between My leg...blogspot....who`s the hell these man is.....oh malaysian....oouuwww ooo engku emran...the famous man maried to Era fazira la.... than see his diary...jeng jeng jeng. His going to Junn wedding which is his staff yesterday at seri kembangan. The date was on sunday...and that means the wedding was on saturday...cool yeah...i`ll tried to figure out from suria fm wedsite but the hell gateway timeout has come out. I think my body cell was tranforms to became a hulk hogens lady...... I do...even no one have ever seen it... damn i'm in the hell out of me... i can proof it.!!!
I msg my BF and ask what the hell happen here....u said ur cousin wedding. The wedding`s held at bangi....are u trying u fishy out with me... i know you have no cousin in bangi.....but i just shut my mouth up because i think that was your privacy and i`m respect u, maybe you wants time with your family......than duh...drama...drama...and drama... got it.....i'm sick of it.....
Please laaa....if you don't wants me to attend you sister's wedding...just discussed it with me. Just say it. I think i have no probs with that...... but what makes me sooooo.....hotty absolutely angry here is.... u don't even gave me much space for me to enjoy mylife either....(I'm gonna cry right now!!) U controlled me 24/7, you controlled with whom i should go out.......u controlled at what time i should reach home...... I'm not the easy-stupidity-kampung gurls la....i have life....i have friends .......i knows my friends much longer than i know you.......they are more like my family than you ....to be honest.
Everyweek my friends ask me to join their recreation activities ....kayaking, water rafting, camping, even i have to cancel my trip to candat sotong and utmostly travell to indonesia to climb mount merapi and see candi borobodur, i have to cancel all around because i know u won't aloud me to go...because what...because i love you. For God sake.......... U didn`t even respect my self or even respect my vision in life.....what u know....u just want everything according to what your thinking.....u never ask whether i`m hurt or not.........but i`m absolutely hurt right now.
i have to change my life to 360 degree after meet you, i have to stay home waiting for your called, if you felt boring than u will call me, if not than i have to stay surround those stupid wall.......or stayed 10km around my house, so when u need me, i`d be just READY to go.
Huh..more like i'm stayed in militry school.
huh.......enough for today......i've really got headache.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
I got BLUES...
I`ve totally got no idea what i`ve done these week. I`ve more likely to run from something, but i donno what kind of thing that chase me. I blurred and scare.......but i donno off what? Life seem like a hell.... even i never been there....uuurrrrhhhhggggg....damn it.
I hate when, something which wrong happen surround me but what i can do was just nothing. Hate hypocrite person, hate them a lot. How could god gave them live in these world. Mess my head around by thinking of them....dduuuhhhh......
A person like me will always think life is unfare.... i still do think that way....... huh
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