Wearing a Hijab!!

PS:-Prepared yourself before read these. Sorry if i hurt someone... but this is the way i'm thinking.

Wow.... i was so ..... astonish when surfing the net and jump to these website.

http://www.thenutgraph.com/tudung-bukan-senjata-perang

What make me so .... happy and release is to read his quote, "Setelah saya mengkaji kitab suci Al-quran dan himpunan kitab Islam yang lain dan banyak berdoa tentang isu hijab, saya sedar bahawa keimanan saya tidak berkait langsung dengan pemakaian hijab. Capaian saya terhadap Islam tidak bergantung kepada penampilan luaran saya."
-Saleemah Abdul-Ghafur

My oppinion is not utk menyesatkan sesiapa ataupun utk mempertikaikan hukum agama..... it just that i felt the same way the author's thinking, to be added i'm an on-and-off wearing the hijab soo i knew what she's trying to said.

Some people i think most of malay; always value others by what they're wearing, without thinking the inner side of hers/him. For them wearing a hijab is utmostly you are a muslim. Do they? Do they sincerely prayed 5 time a days? Doing a haj.... fasting...? Do they really commit to their religious .... to Islam... to Allah!! I will stated here my oppinion, my point of view, that to be a muslim not just outside you, not just wearing a hijab and sholat but at the same time you mengumpat, mencaci org lain, menghina, merendahkan taraf org lain, and thinking that your the best followers upon others. For me its not that way... its really not.

Islam and Iman is something inside you, it may stayed at your heart(hati)and flowed to your vein and became who you are. You cannot judge people by its covered. Upon my 26years i face a lot of situation when a daughter of an Imam converted (to other religous) when she's married. And a good christianity devoted, she's in church choir, never miss a sunday class, even i help her trying to find his crosschain loss in wildlife camp, she was soo sad, and at that time i prayed to Allah if that thing will make my friend happy, gave that thing back to her, and it did, a chinese girl found it. She was soo happy, soo do I. And now she's happily married and a good muslim devoted, even better then me. Whats important is.... Allah knows better then we do, even sometime its beyond our thinking limitation.

I do admit, I'm not a good gurl before, but i still learn to be the best throughout my life today and in the future. And when people came and judging you, and said a harsh words like.. ko ni ader crisis identiti ker.? I was soo mad, piss off and i want to yell at them, but my heart said the otherside; then a just smile and said in my heart .... may Allah bless you.

I respect my parents(mak ayah)and my best buddy (Ijan yani ida ct) who respect the way i am. They know that i will wearing a full covered when i'm sincerely to do it someday, they never push me to do what i don't want to, and they are so patient with my attitude. I'm just lettin' other people to judge me, the way the want to...... most important is... your not important to me... but ALLAH do.

Heal The World

If you care enought for the livin,

make a little space, make a better place,

heal the world, make it a better,

for you and for me and the entire human race,

there are people dying,

if you care enought for the livin,

make a better place for you and for me.........

Wow!! There's no longer "king of POP", king of wacko, king of weirdo, whatever people call him. I was soo shock, when i'm wake-up late these morning and the radio station playing marathon of his song, maybe today is his birthday, can't be death, his too young, OK i mean not too old to died. Then the DJ's said that his bodied was flew to UCLA hospital, and at that time 10.00am in Malaysia, they's doing a post-mortem on his bodied to knew the course of his sudden death. Ohhh......gorshhh!!!

What........... was the news is all about. On my way to LAB, there's playing this song heal the world, and i'm thinking.... how difficult to be Michael Jackson, his start his career since the age of 4, with his brother ... the jackson 5. They were famous then, and he became more famous when goin` on for solo with a bunch of great excellent song. He can buy everything he wants including those plastic surgery, and when i'm in form 3, my teachers Mrs. Ong told us that kepala paip/pili paip is made of solid gold. Wow..........note that SOLID. How lucky to be his plumber.!! You can see that SOLID thing......cool!!

I read through internet, showed all the stories of him, about his misbehaviour, his NEVERLAND, his intention on children....... i make a conclution that, he don't have much time to enjoyed his kid life, and that's why he express it when his became adult...... Wonder my friend wan maisarah will cried heard this news, she's a big fan of him...........

OK enough with my bubbling....pen-off

Adeehhhh!!!!!

"Jika kita berani berhadapan dengan hakikat kehidupan yang pahit, kita akan lebih dapat menghuraikannya daripada setakat berpura-pura ianya tidak wujud."

-LeeKuanYew

Harrr!!! kecewa gler nih, aku apply biasiswa bawah bajet ransangan ekonomi, tadi baru chek result dia ........... aku tak berjaya dol!!! Tension siot!! Bukannya tension aperpun, tension nak pikir camner nak bayar duit yuran. Maybe salah satu sebab kena reject sebab aku dah sem 5 kot. Huh, pasni kena cari kejer partime nak bayar yuran, ngan present VIVA lg misti nk guna bnyk duit, gaji RA RM1300 tolak EPF cukup untuk bayar keta ngan umah ngan makan jer.

Harrr.... pasne jatuh miskin, takleh main bowling selalu, takleh ge sushi king, takleh ge karoke, ge wayang, ge treatment rambut, ge facial muka, ge shopping, ge cuci keta kat kedai............. harrrrrr. Tekanannya!!

Aritu balik kampung, mak aku cakap kalo nak guna duit lam seribu lebih mak aku leh kasi........ tapi, hmmmm taknak lah. Taksuka nyusahkan my parents, selagi boleh usaha sendiri, aku akan usaha sendiri........... yeah... chaiyo!! chaiyo!! gambate..kodasai!! Aja...aja...fighting..........

Haaarrrgggggg......dah jatuh miskin.!!!

Fighting!! Fighting!!!

SEDIHNYA........................................................

Harharhar.... i'm here

Hahaha......I'm going back to my kampung tomorrow. Gorsshh, i was soo nervous that's it. U know, my relationship with my father is a little bit.....problems!! So, duh!! well at least i followed his ordered to break up with him(X-BF no.3). So i owe nothing from that........ I'm single now!! So i very appreciate when i'm going back that no one will ask..."Bila nak kawen...!!" question. It's totally a preassure for me, when i'm totally not ready for that yet, and most important is i didn't find yet a prince that will shine my shining armour....whatever the words is!!! That's why i just grab whoever guy which pass me by; because of the preassure they made. The most important is ... i just don't wanna let them down. To be honest, I'M NOT READY yet. I hope they understand.

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I miss padi field, i miss to smell the air the river, i miss my CLEO magazine collection(since form 1) remaja magazine (since standard 6) guess how much my mother look at that as a profit, she already has a buyer for that, miss my cat Hadder, miss my siblings, miss my parents, miss my nenek, miss to panjat pokok, skrg musim durian and manggis............ Duh durian.....uwekk!! I hate durian. Miss to play badminton with my little cousin, Am, twins cousin imah and ihah, miss masakan kampung, ulam, i miss everything...... its the place where i start to be who i became today. It's hard to be an adult, maybe because i have soo much joy in my kids life........kahkahkah..... what a stupid thinking!!

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Sooo..... i hope my relationship with dad will be OK. Still dup dap dup dap. Guys... wish me luck, and do pray for me....... HUH gotta to face it.

Positive thinking positive, positive, + + + + + + + + +

HHHaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrggggghhhh

Me....me...me... and me agains

mE.... for the matter of moment!!! ;-)NO bloggiNg fOr Me, tilL i saTisfied with my JoB........

I'm A liTtLe bit HaPpy witH tHe PrOgreSs i've maDe, Accept foR laBwOrk whIcH i will StaRt ToDAY.......kuikuikui

i'VE Already pack all my books and reference, soo i can make my writting at home, can't do it here, it soo many people, crowded with practical students, new RA and new students. I don't blame them thou, just my working attitude which need something calm and at peace for me to generate my idea. NO internet, and i've delete all kind of game in my laptop, no games no blogging! Accept for spider solitaire.....harharhar

I read a few books from my collection and library to go along with my bored day included Ancient Egypts, few indonesian classic novel.....cools, one that i bought in Bangi is Never give up, the author is Hamdan Lutfi, its more like a religious book but its a great book when his narrate it in modern way of thinking which i can digest it as a young people of my age. The most thrilling one is a Memoir of Lee Kuan Yew, it soo......good, its like he brought me to his situation, he tell his story and told us how, why and what made he became what he is. Such a good book, but what make me think a lot is when he said ......... sesetengah negara telah dilahirkan merdeka, ada negara berjuang utk mencapai kemerdekaan tetapi Singapura telah dipaksa untuk merdeka.

Wow...........!!!!! Whatever ..........no comment for that, most important is I'm not good at History!! Which really brighten my day when i read these quote:

Rakyat pada keseluruhannya mesti mempunyai rasa harga diri & kemahuan untuk berusaha bagi menjadikan DIRI mereka satu bangsa.......

Till then have a nice day bloggers..........might not be here for a few weeks, i'm in my hibernate-day.... tata

About to do my LABWORK !!

Had dinner last night with En.syed and En.naz at Manhattan Fish Market, Alamanda, Putrajaya with those dory salmon prawn squid and luvly mussel with CHEESE and garlic. WALLAA.... yummy tummy!! Wake up late this morning, do my laundry, fried again fried rice which is leftover from yerterday evening, try to eat it but wahwahwah.... already basi,throw it away.... boyle the water, take a shower, make 3quarter egg put some honey and my-darling ketchup, eat it with watching BETTY on TV. Going upstair look at my bookrack, grab one An Autobiography- the history of the ginger man- J. P. Donleavy. Can't remembered when i bought this book, maybe a zillion years ago. Sneak our freazer got hershee's chocolate, grab one Mi Goreng Pedas instant noodles... zaaassss drive to my lab.

Jeng...jeng..jeng.... Uma told me, still the water problem is not fixed yet(NOTED that YET!!!). How i'm gonna do my labwork....gorsh!! Better focus on my chapter 1 2 3.....Think positive gurl.... positive...positive... + + + +

I'm sooo.... i don't know what the best words to describe my feeling RIGHT NOW...... MAD.....yes a little bit. Most important is ... i don't wanna to be disturb at these moment want to neutralize my bad omen........ gorshh......

(PS: uma & shah plays badminton behind me, yup in this postgraduat room........jgn sampai bulu tangkis tu kena kepala aku sudah laaa....)

The problem is happen to be with my Reasearch officer.... gorsh, i had no idea what soo THE problem with those crucible glass filter which only cost RM1000 per boxs(10 piece) when the money is still had about RM800,000 for the research...... He said he's already buy two box last year..... Urrrhhhh... frankly said..... it's not enough, mehdi already used it...... think positive dear + + + +