Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Ha..... dah kul 5pm.... nak balik!!

Pukul 4.50pm, umapathy dah berdiri belakang aku sambil tersenyum, bila nak anta article nak wat poster, dgn muka ku yg manis dan suara yg lemah-lembut... besok I anta... hehe. Pastu dia balas, besok-besok, jgn besok tak anta lak, dah berapa kali i dengar besok.... kahkahkah!! Aku pandang eppy dia buat derrkk jer, sambil keluar..... jgn lupa punch out, wah siap bagi mandat lagi..... aku dah terpinga2 sensorg. Semua org kt cni dah bnyk kerjer..... muka pun dah mcm tertelan getah tayar beskal.... termasuk aku....harrrggg

Dua tiga minggu ni, mmg takder mood sgt nak wat kerjer.... lepas aku pg frim buat testing then dpt result tak ikut standard..... time buat testing tu lg muka aku dah pucat, bertukar biru, kepala dah berat, berpinar2, rasa cam.... what am i gonna do. Bila discuss with my supervivor, yes jaw. yg memang aku dah jangka.... dear darling you have to start all over agains, simple answer.... but more like hell when you already goes 80% to finish everything, and have to start all over again... meaning to start from O%.

Rasa cam nak bertukar jadi ultramen jap.... otromen Joe, otromen lima, ultramen ACE... datang menyelamatkan dunia yang huru hara. Wahai penduduk bumi ketepi biar ultramen yg menyelesaikan tugas ini... Yer...cik norhayati, biar oltromen yg tolong cik, takyah drive susah2 ge frim tgh2 jame nnt sakit kaki, ferrari cik norhayati tu dah la manual, naik jer belakang otromen nih, nak wat kerjer aper... pulping, bleaching, screening, testing ... oh mudah sahaja...... otromen penah lawan raksasa lagi besar dari MK digester ini. Tapi time lampu otromen dah liplap liplap... ko setlekan kerjer ko sendiri, otromen nak kena balik ker angkasa, kang ngn otromen skali pengsan ...... harharhar....

Jangan risau... cik norhayati, tadi san goku pergi berlawan dgn fliza, rasa2 nya bezita pun ge follow dia, saya dah sms kat chichi bini goku supaya dtg tolong cik norhayati... sementara menunggu san goku dan awan gulingnya... SAYA.... card captor sakura.... sedia membantu. Ok...cukup utk hari ni.

Nak ge pick up ida, ge umah CT. Chow dulu.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Wearing a Hijab!!

PS:-Prepared yourself before read these. Sorry if i hurt someone... but this is the way i'm thinking.

Wow.... i was so ..... astonish when surfing the net and jump to these website.

http://www.thenutgraph.com/tudung-bukan-senjata-perang

What make me so .... happy and release is to read his quote, "Setelah saya mengkaji kitab suci Al-quran dan himpunan kitab Islam yang lain dan banyak berdoa tentang isu hijab, saya sedar bahawa keimanan saya tidak berkait langsung dengan pemakaian hijab. Capaian saya terhadap Islam tidak bergantung kepada penampilan luaran saya."
-Saleemah Abdul-Ghafur

My oppinion is not utk menyesatkan sesiapa ataupun utk mempertikaikan hukum agama..... it just that i felt the same way the author's thinking, to be added i'm an on-and-off wearing the hijab soo i knew what she's trying to said.

Some people i think most of malay; always value others by what they're wearing, without thinking the inner side of hers/him. For them wearing a hijab is utmostly you are a muslim. Do they? Do they sincerely prayed 5 time a days? Doing a haj.... fasting...? Do they really commit to their religious .... to Islam... to Allah!! I will stated here my oppinion, my point of view, that to be a muslim not just outside you, not just wearing a hijab and sholat but at the same time you mengumpat, mencaci org lain, menghina, merendahkan taraf org lain, and thinking that your the best followers upon others. For me its not that way... its really not.

Islam and Iman is something inside you, it may stayed at your heart(hati)and flowed to your vein and became who you are. You cannot judge people by its covered. Upon my 26years i face a lot of situation when a daughter of an Imam converted (to other religous) when she's married. And a good christianity devoted, she's in church choir, never miss a sunday class, even i help her trying to find his crosschain loss in wildlife camp, she was soo sad, and at that time i prayed to Allah if that thing will make my friend happy, gave that thing back to her, and it did, a chinese girl found it. She was soo happy, soo do I. And now she's happily married and a good muslim devoted, even better then me. Whats important is.... Allah knows better then we do, even sometime its beyond our thinking limitation.

I do admit, I'm not a good gurl before, but i still learn to be the best throughout my life today and in the future. And when people came and judging you, and said a harsh words like.. ko ni ader crisis identiti ker.? I was soo mad, piss off and i want to yell at them, but my heart said the otherside; then a just smile and said in my heart .... may Allah bless you.

I respect my parents(mak ayah)and my best buddy (Ijan yani ida ct) who respect the way i am. They know that i will wearing a full covered when i'm sincerely to do it someday, they never push me to do what i don't want to, and they are so patient with my attitude. I'm just lettin' other people to judge me, the way the want to...... most important is... your not important to me... but ALLAH do.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Heal The World

If you care enought for the livin,

make a little space, make a better place,

heal the world, make it a better,

for you and for me and the entire human race,

there are people dying,

if you care enought for the livin,

make a better place for you and for me.........


Wow!! There's no longer "king of POP", king of wacko, king of weirdo, whatever people call him. I was soo shock, when i'm wake-up late these morning and the radio station playing marathon of his song, maybe today is his birthday, can't be death, his too young, OK i mean not too old to died. Then the DJ's said that his bodied was flew to UCLA hospital, and at that time 10.00am in Malaysia, they's doing a post-mortem on his bodied to knew the course of his sudden death. Ohhh......gorshhh!!!


What........... was the news is all about. On my way to LAB, there's playing this song heal the world, and i'm thinking.... how difficult to be Michael Jackson, his start his career since the age of 4, with his brother ... the jackson 5. They were famous then, and he became more famous when goin` on for solo with a bunch of great excellent song. He can buy everything he wants including those plastic surgery, and when i'm in form 3, my teachers Mrs. Ong told us that kepala paip/pili paip is made of solid gold. Wow..........note that SOLID. How lucky to be his plumber.!! You can see that SOLID thing......cool!!


I read through internet, showed all the stories of him, about his misbehaviour, his NEVERLAND, his intention on children....... i make a conclution that, he don't have much time to enjoyed his kid life, and that's why he express it when his became adult...... Wonder my friend wan maisarah will cried heard this news, she's a big fan of him...........


OK enough with my bubbling....pen-off

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Adeehhhh!!!!!

"Jika kita berani berhadapan dengan hakikat kehidupan yang pahit, kita akan lebih dapat menghuraikannya daripada setakat berpura-pura ianya tidak wujud."

-LeeKuanYew

Harrr!!! kecewa gler nih, aku apply biasiswa bawah bajet ransangan ekonomi, tadi baru chek result dia ........... aku tak berjaya dol!!! Tension siot!! Bukannya tension aperpun, tension nak pikir camner nak bayar duit yuran. Maybe salah satu sebab kena reject sebab aku dah sem 5 kot. Huh, pasni kena cari kejer partime nak bayar yuran, ngan present VIVA lg misti nk guna bnyk duit, gaji RA RM1300 tolak EPF cukup untuk bayar keta ngan umah ngan makan jer.

Harrr.... pasne jatuh miskin, takleh main bowling selalu, takleh ge sushi king, takleh ge karoke, ge wayang, ge treatment rambut, ge facial muka, ge shopping, ge cuci keta kat kedai............. harrrrrr. Tekanannya!!

Aritu balik kampung, mak aku cakap kalo nak guna duit lam seribu lebih mak aku leh kasi........ tapi, hmmmm taknak lah. Taksuka nyusahkan my parents, selagi boleh usaha sendiri, aku akan usaha sendiri........... yeah... chaiyo!! chaiyo!! gambate..kodasai!! Aja...aja...fighting..........

Haaarrrgggggg......dah jatuh miskin.!!!

Fighting!! Fighting!!!

SEDIHNYA........................................................

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Harharhar.... i'm here

Hahaha......I'm going back to my kampung tomorrow. Gorsshh, i was soo nervous that's it. U know, my relationship with my father is a little bit.....problems!! So, duh!! well at least i followed his ordered to break up with him(X-BF no.3). So i owe nothing from that........ I'm single now!! So i very appreciate when i'm going back that no one will ask..."Bila nak kawen...!!" question. It's totally a preassure for me, when i'm totally not ready for that yet, and most important is i didn't find yet a prince that will shine my shining armour....whatever the words is!!! That's why i just grab whoever guy which pass me by; because of the preassure they made. The most important is ... i just don't wanna let them down. To be honest, I'M NOT READY yet. I hope they understand.
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I miss padi field, i miss to smell the air the river, i miss my CLEO magazine collection(since form 1) remaja magazine (since standard 6) guess how much my mother look at that as a profit, she already has a buyer for that, miss my cat Hadder, miss my siblings, miss my parents, miss my nenek, miss to panjat pokok, skrg musim durian and manggis............ Duh durian.....uwekk!! I hate durian. Miss to play badminton with my little cousin, Am, twins cousin imah and ihah, miss masakan kampung, ulam, i miss everything...... its the place where i start to be who i became today. It's hard to be an adult, maybe because i have soo much joy in my kids life........kahkahkah..... what a stupid thinking!!
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Sooo..... i hope my relationship with dad will be OK. Still dup dap dup dap. Guys... wish me luck, and do pray for me....... HUH gotta to face it.
Positive thinking positive, positive, + + + + + + + + +
HHHaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrggggghhhh

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Me....me...me... and me agains

mE.... for the matter of moment!!! ;-)NO bloggiNg fOr Me, tilL i saTisfied with my JoB........
I'm A liTtLe bit HaPpy witH tHe PrOgreSs i've maDe, Accept foR laBwOrk whIcH i will StaRt ToDAY.......kuikuikui
i'VE Already pack all my books and reference, soo i can make my writting at home, can't do it here, it soo many people, crowded with practical students, new RA and new students. I don't blame them thou, just my working attitude which need something calm and at peace for me to generate my idea. NO internet, and i've delete all kind of game in my laptop, no games no blogging! Accept for spider solitaire.....harharhar

I read a few books from my collection and library to go along with my bored day included Ancient Egypts, few indonesian classic novel.....cools, one that i bought in Bangi is Never give up, the author is Hamdan Lutfi, its more like a religious book but its a great book when his narrate it in modern way of thinking which i can digest it as a young people of my age. The most thrilling one is a Memoir of Lee Kuan Yew, it soo......good, its like he brought me to his situation, he tell his story and told us how, why and what made he became what he is. Such a good book, but what make me think a lot is when he said ......... sesetengah negara telah dilahirkan merdeka, ada negara berjuang utk mencapai kemerdekaan tetapi Singapura telah dipaksa untuk merdeka.

Wow...........!!!!! Whatever ..........no comment for that, most important is I'm not good at History!! Which really brighten my day when i read these quote:

Rakyat pada keseluruhannya mesti mempunyai rasa harga diri & kemahuan untuk berusaha bagi menjadikan DIRI mereka satu bangsa.......

Till then have a nice day bloggers..........might not be here for a few weeks, i'm in my hibernate-day.... tata