THE UPSETTING DAY'S

After reading Tenggelamnya Kapal Van der Wijck, FROM wellknown HAMKA. I had an idea to wrote a poem, i grab my sketch book, look at each page for a new idea, somehow i was stunned with one of my poem that i wrote specially dedicated to my before-bestfriend, i don't know whether she's still remembered me, till now she is my best-friend........ we always laught together, note down our point of view freely without afraid of the idea to be rejected, she's perfect, she's beautiful, she's smart, sometime i envy these perfect creatures, but most of the time i'm proud to be his friend...............well the moments was so long to past ago. So ...... this poem is for you, i miss you friends ......REGINA.

Today.........I've got a tree

The tree is in the pot

And I place it outside my house

The sun is shinning brightly and...

The win is blowing slowly

The pot is wet and my hand is dirty

I've started my step,

followed the rhythm of leaf at the gelam tree,

And the flowers of hibiscus blooming away.

Telling everybody, that my heart is empty.

Tomorrow will going by

The tears will stop flowing,

And one day you'll forgotted

That today someone is back-stabbing you

That you are totally breakdown and tears apart

As the sand and dirt messed your pants.

When the plant growth higher and bigger!!!!

(1.28am)

-1/10/06-

I've already forgive whoes back-stabbing me, they are human, and human do lots of mistake.

Ye...ye...menang bola...

Harharhar.....gua nak ketawa tahap kingkong punya. Introp lawan bola ngan Fakulti sains, Introp menang 4-2, best gler nih gua isytiharkan sebagai gua punya hadiah birthday paling bermakna walaupun gol tu semua sikit pun dorg tak dedicated kat wa. harharhar.......

Ni dipanggil menang untuk menebus maruah yang tercalar selepas bermain ngan Fakulti hutan, kes bertumbuk tgh padang then kes dorg wat protes walaupun Introp lawan Fakulti hutan menang 2-1, tapi dorg menang protes so keputusannya ktrg kalah 3-0 ngan Fakulti hutan. En. Mat (Pegawai Tadbir) cakap takyah lah bising2, kita main sukan untuk suka2 jerr..... tak guna gak kalo menang protes tp akhirnya menyusahkan org lain..... nak mencari makan. BETUL gak cakap En. Mat yang ktrg sayang nih.

Shah ckp budak2 introp yang nak main, semua dah kecewa taknak turun padang, budak Ittar pun ada yg taknak main. Kita dah confirm takleh masuk final sbb bnyk mata tu kena tolak..... Shah cakap ngan muka marah. Ye la...first ktrg lawan ngn Fac. Kejuteraan ktrg menang 2-1.... memang considered leh ge finalnyer lah.......Kalo tak sebab si Ashadi tu yang cari pasal sampai kena tumbuk, memang smooth jer perjalanan ktrg, time dia kena tumbuk pengadil nampak, time dia lutut kan budak tu sampai berdarah bibir pengadil tak nampak..........hmmmm. It's the name of the game....... what else to say.

Aku tak puas hati aku torture Shah, aku cakap kt di tempat yang benar so buktikan yang kita bleh menang lawan kali ni. Buktikan!!! Walaupun kita takleh masuk final, maruah lagi penting dari piala yang tak seberapa tu. So at last.....we prove it. Ktrg menang 4-2 dalam perlawanan yang sgt memuaskan hati sebab takder bergaduh, takder bertumbuk, takder maki-hamun, even Fakulti sains jaringkan gol, kitrg pun tepuk tangan takder halnyer beb. To be added Fakulti hutan kalah lawan ngn fakulti kejuteraan 4-0.

Kebenaran sentiasa akan terbukti akhirnya. Ada la cakap2 yang menyatakan susah laaa nak pg fakulti pas ni konfirm kena pandang slack. For me, hallo!!!!! Aku tahu spirit faculti hutan macam mana aku dah hampir sepuluh tahun kat faculti ni, spirit ktrg memang kuat mcm family. But one thing most important is if you want to do something, be honest with it and put your pride on it, otherwise mother nature(Hukum Alam) will showed you the way.

Aku tidak takut pada sesuatu yg dinamakan KEBENARAN, if I'm wrong please with the name of God, showed me the right way.
Enought with my bubbling.............

HappY 26 Birthday....

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Nadia Betty(12:01AM): Happy birthday!! Thankx NADIA
Ijan(12.02AM): A lullabye early morning happy birthday song via MMS......LOVE U friends
Umapathy(12:41AM): Hi Yatt.... Selamat Hari Jadi... HEHE
My Big Sis(4:06Am): Happy besday semoga panjang umur d murahkan rezeki dan diringankan jodoh :-) Amboi pepagi buta betul ko sms aku nih misti bangun time anak ko merengek nak susu.
Timah 012(6:57Am): Salam beb.....happy besday!smoge panjang umo n murah rezeki!take care n love ya so much! LOVE U too friends
Ipin(8.28Am): Hepi birthday, ;-) Thankx anak ikan
My Lovely Twin Bro(Adik)(8.58Am): Kak t, eppy bezday. May Allah alwayz luv,blezz n care 4 u :-) May Allah bless and care for you too. I'm proud to be your sister.
Mak(10:58AM): Kak t, epi bday yg ke26.. Smoga pnjng umor,mrh rzeki, n pa2 je la..huhu.. Epi bday, dri adk mimi n mak.. LOVE U where's dad....????????
My Lovely Twin Bro(Abang)(11:32AM); Nenek SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI LAHIR KE-62... Semoga pjg umur & murah rezeki. Harharhar, I'm proud to be your sister even you have to follow every each order that i've made but deep down inside me I love you bro...

Thankx everyone i love ya all !!!!! May Allah bless we all, also guide me to the right way of my journey, may Him gave me the time for me to enjoyed my life and be good to others. And may Him gave me a chance to be who i wanted to be.................Amin Ya Rabbal a'lamin.

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MYBest friend IDA and CT

IM in TRAUMATIC!!

I don't know what happen to myself, but since going back to Bagan Datok, i was soooo........... TRYING hard to be NORMAL. And guess what???? I know i didn't. Because first of all, i can't concentrated on study and exam, pending on writting my second journal, i laught a lot!! (note that A LOT means not normal, insane......duh!!!), I just let myself flow away, slide on each day without has schedule for me to follow. I'm like someone that is LOST, but there's no one realise about it.

I just buy whatever come on my head, grab one nice yellow t-shirt, a BUM white watch which stayed cool on my left hand, on my list right now is carlo rino highheel, pink wallet, and goggles jeans. I going back with a very full stomach last night with all those kind of sushi and mee udon at the sushi king. I played bowling almost everyday....... had a life without thinking bout tomorrow, afraid to think about tomorrow, scared to know what will happen to me after this, have a nice day with half of my spirit enjoyed what am i doing and the other half is wondering around like nothing happen. Gorsshhh!!!

I'm suffering, i know bout that, i scared that on day without realised it ....... that i will die. I scared to think bout death, but no one can do anything bout it..... it's on God hand, and we know nothing bout it. I had a lots of planned on my head for tomorrow, for these week, for these month and next month, another 10 years from now, 20 years and at my ages reach 70. The thing is whether i reach that number or not.... thats the main point!!! I don't know what to do with myself. I .................... just don't know.

I become blur

SUNDAY again!!!

Semua org akan rasa happy when sunday is coming because they can have a nice rest, long sleepy day and watching TV. Completely difference with me!!! Bler sunday jer confirm muka aku terpacak kat ofis ni ngan foreigner yg lain. Nak siapkan report ngan slide nak present besok, its been two year i'm doing my master degree, its crazy but i really hope to finish my master in three years thats my limit and a torture, GET IT by hook or by crook. Otherwise i declare myself as a failure.!!

Whateverpun semalam i already have fun pg shopping barang dapur then jumpa baju 3 for slightly RM10....... on my bucket baby....yeah!! Gler sangat shopping, xleh nak wat aper. Ari jumaat aritu nunggu dorg dtg tempat bowling gua grab one nice yellow T-shirt for only RM15. HEHEHE..... a present for my self. then main bowling.......harharhar.......mula2 score 119 then second game yee haaaa 129. COOL......

Hmmm..... maybe 24 april ni aku target nak beli jam, dah usher dah harga around rm200. A birthday present for myself. Also beli jeans baru.......... hehe.

Tadi bangun pepagi......pagi ker...5minit sebelum kul 11.00, considered pagi ler tu kan??? masak nugget pastu masak fetucini carbonara, hehe.......ok lah sedap la jugak bler di tambah ngan parmesan cheese. Ohhh hhooo......terlupa semalam pg check kesihatan kat mesin kat Giant Kinrara....... ni result dia....

weight = 49.7 (Dah naik sikit dulu 46 jerrr!!!!)
height = 155
your BMI is = 20.7
normal BMI range = 19-25
ideal weight = 45-60kg

body fat index = 27.7%
mass body fat = 13.8kg
ideal body fat = 18-27%
ideal body fat mass = 8.9-13.4kg
daily energy requirement 1183 Kcal

Blood Pressure = 119/81
pulse rate = 88/ppm (nih sebab wa nervous!!)
normal blood pressure less then = 140/95

OK enought for today, time to work!!!! OH yer..... besok pas meeting, nak ge pameran buku kat PWTC, pg time kerjer best sikit....... tak ramai org!! Dah 2 tahun aku tak sempat nak ge pameran buku, this time aku tak mungkin akan lepaskan. Heh!!!